Animal Actors Show

Gonna try n' do Animal Actors at 1:30pm (I think it's abt 15 - 20 mins long). Then, the second show/attraction right after. Remember though, walking to the second one will take a bit and then wait time in line.

On my way to Universal! ♡♡♡

OK, finally on my way to Universal (on subway now)! ETA INSIDE the park, 11:30am.

I am going to get something to eat and drink for lunch, however, I am not specifying beforehand whether it'll be a big or small affair.

The plan is still that I'll take you both to two attractions (The Animal Actor's Show and one other one that'll be a surprise) and the food. I'm not saying in which order.

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See you both there!

One last morning/early afternoon of Universal Studios

Soooo...my Universal Studios' pass expires 10/5/19. The rest of this week I have some things to do so there's a big chance I may not be able to get out there again, but this morning may the last chance I have to set aside some hours out there. I don't think I'll be there all day, but I was thinking of heading out there for a few hours this morning.

Are either of you available this morning for a couple of other rides, shows or attractions? I know of one or two other fun shows they offer that might be fun to psychically sense, and I can take video clips of 'em.

Let me know. I'm prolly gonna go either way.

I'll prolly hop in the shower soon so I can make it there by 10am-ish (when they open).

Hungryroot

Here's an online delivered to your door grocer, that has yummy vegan options that are fresh:

https://www.hungryroot.com/foods/

These guys are based in NYC, but ask if they have depots in Nashville or just Google search for places like this in your area (oddly, the Google search I did WAS for online vegan grocers in Nashville - and Hungryroot came up).

Vegan Grocery Stores and Restaurants in Nashville, TN

Note: This is a partial list. Just don't give up when looking, seems like there's definitely stuff available in that area, you just have to poke around. :)

Top 10 Best Vegan Grocery Stores in Nashville, TN, updated September 2019 - Yelp

https://m.yelp.com/search?find_desc=vegan+grocery&find_loc=Nashville%2C+TN

Top 30 Best Vegan Grocery Stores/Restaurants in Nashville - Yellow Pages*

*some of these may be restaurants.

https://www.yellowpages.com/nashville-tn/vegan-grocery-stores

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RESTAURANTS

Vegan Nashville Restaurant and Travel Guide

https://justinpluslauren.com/vegan-nashville-restaurant-travel-guide/

The Best Vegan and Vegetarian Restaurants in Nashville

http://nashvilleguru.com/37427/best-vegan-and-vegetarian-restaurants-in-nashville

Vegan Friendly Restaurants in Nashville

https://theconscientiouseater.com/vegan-friendly-restaurants-in-nashville-tennessee/

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Thrive Market delivers to your door and they have a Vegan Food and Products section. I have not tried them myself personally but it's worth investigating their website.

https://thrivemarket.com/lifestyle/vegan?device=m&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI9-nl0ob45AIVB9bACh2qrAQ7EAEYASAAEgKrjvD_BwE&utm_campaign=Value_Food_Discovery_Broad_Mobile&utm_content=56381893082&utm_medium=cpc&utm_source=google&utm_term=266333066079-kwd-2809018845&cur_page=2

There's so many of these healthy-living online/home delivery grocers available these days, I'll post more when I come across them. A Google search could yield results, too.

Also, look to the Soulkin Instagram account, I have a photo posted there. It mentions how the Nashville Whole Foods and Trader Joe's do carry some vegan items. I don't know how extensive their selection is, but they do offer some things. :)

Breakfast in DTLA!!!

I'm going to breakfast, and yes! I would loooove for you to psychically join me. I'll go to breakfast first, then I have some errands to run.

Where I am going, I have taken you to before (at least I'm pretty sure I have). It will be a burst of flavorful delights for you to try to taste and there's a lot of fun decoration for you to try to clairvoyantly see.

Magickal Pumpkin Patch, Charlie Brown

Note: As I began typing this post tonight in real-time, the circumstances changed. Let's try to do this soon, if not tonight, now that you two know about it.

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So, I was thinking that tonight we could go for a little visit to a Magickal Pumpkin Patch I know of. It exists in the ethers or the astral realm - where we held Night Faire (Renaissance Faire) in the space in our imaginations.

It'll be a type of imaginary attraction that's similar to many held out in the regular world whereby people make a big exhibit or garden of lit, carved pumpkins in honor of the upcoming holiday. We have one or two in the LA area every Halloween. People go bonkers carving super ornate pumpkins and then making intricate craft displays out of them.

Below is a link of one of these ornate pumpkin patches in the LA area. Once on the Yelp page, just go to the Photos section and you'll see examples of all the great pumpkins in the exhibit.

https://m.yelp.com/biz_photos/pumpkin-nights-pomona?select=s4LRvQt-4jKRd4eaRuKIFQ

So, the Otherside has one of these pumpkin exhibits set up for us. What's great is that it's like an art exhibit - just still objects - so, no need for a lot of talking. I am thinking of inviting a special guest along with us, who is in spirit. It's my old friend, the actor, James Dean. He'll help be our guide. :)

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What is so cruel is that literally as I started typing this, the neighbor above me starting making their noise. I feel like it's going to be a long holiday season because if these "ne'erdowells" get back into the habit of somehow subconsciously sensing everytime I try to do something meaningful so that they can attempt to disrupt it, I will go out of my mind with frustration and inefficacy of purpose.

We're trying to clear the space of their bad thoughts/energy/words/deeds first, but if it's taking too long, I know you have a big day tomorrow, Eddie. We can just go to the Magickal Pumpkin Patch another night, after we clear the bad Rosslyn energy first, and maybe have more of the night to work with. We can wait until there isn't so much of a time crunch. Also, this is the weekend when it's rowdier at the Rosslyn and in DTLA.

There's also Night Northern (California) Renaissance Faire going on this weekend in the Underground and going on every weekend until Oct 20, 2019. Shelby is officially working it in the regular world (he's doing his One Man Shakespeare: Romeo and Juliet act). And then, I think, him and Richard are also attending Night Faire in the Underground way of things via their subconscious/alternative consciousness state.

The Green New Deal with Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez

https://youtu.be/yoFaQ9foV8I

Good video. Informative. I reccomend it.

All Photos & Videos from Universal Studios are posted on YouTube and Soulkin Instagram

Ok, I now have the video clips posted from the two live shows I invited you to psychically receive, Jackie. Eddie, I thought you might have attended the first one. They are uploaded to my Angelis Paranormal YouTube Channel under the category "Videos."

The first show (which was held around  1pm on Thursday, Sept. 26, 2019) was the "Special Effects Show." The second show (which was held around 4pm on Thursday, Sept 26, 2019) was the "Waterworld Show."

There are 6 and 5 video clips respectively for each show. I hope you two find the notes you each took on the psychic impressions you both received for each event match with the video evidence.

I have the breakfast photo, along with an ingredients list and misc photos and videos of my adventures yesterday posted on the Soulkin Instagram page.

This work is great practice for both of you and I'm sorry to see Universal Studios leave from our lives for now.
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Breakfast photos and live show videos from Universal Studios

If you go to the Soulkin Instagram you'll find the breakfast photo and ingredients list uploaded, along with various photos and videos of my day at Universal Studios Hollywood yesterday. I was thinking of you both the whole time, so wishing you were there with me! ♡♡♡

My understanding is that you, Jackie, joined me for two shows and that Eddie joined us for the first show. Videos of the two shows will be uploaded to Angelis Paranormal YouTube. I have not done that yet, but while you're checking out the Instagram feed, I can begin on that.

Universal Studios pass almost expired

I am saying that this may be the last or nearly the last time I'll be heading out to good ole Universal Studios, including the effervescent Harrypotterlandia, because my annual pass is about to expire.

I may renew again next summer when they offer a cheaper SoCal Resident Rate, we'll see.

It certainly has been a magickal psychic ride, Universal. We won't forget you. ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

Breakfast and rides at Universal Studios Hollywood

Ok, I hope to leave to get on the subway by around 9am and then hopefully that'll put me at breakfast at Universal Studios by a little after 10am. I'm gonna hop in the shower now.

You're welcome to invite Eddie to breakfast. I'd love it if he came. I dont want to impose too much more than that on him though, as he might have prep work for his festival this weekend (I know it starts tomorrow).

Looking forward to this today though and if you want, you're welcome to try to psychically tap into as much as we can direct to you that you have time for! ♡♡♡♡

My Heritage

Jackie and Ed, if you ever wonder, my heritage is English and Mexican and Native American. I am 50% Mexican on my dad's side. On my mom's side, they are English, except my maternal great-grandmother was 100% Cherokee Indian, so that makes me 1/8th Cherokee, too.

Donut Friend bakery & the donut we just ate

Good morning! Go to the Soulkin Instagram to find photos of the donut and drink we just ate, inclusive of an ingredients list, photos of the bakery and me!

Thanksgiving ADDENDUM I

So, what I would do is plan a basic grocery menu (tofurky, mash potatoes, vegan gravy, etc) then we each go buy the same food, maybe even from same grocers and/or restaurant and prepare and (or have prepared for us) the same dishes that we all eat and psychically connect over on Thanksgiving late night or a night thereabouts.

Also, I was saying the $75 price was straight up a little too steep for me for one person. Whereas this plan may clock in at a little bit less expensive.

If there's any other vegetarian or vegan chain I can think that has an affordable premade dinner (for the sake of saving prep time), I'll try to think of it, but these were two options for now....

Oh! Just to cover all bases though, I WILL call Veggie Grill at some point soon and ask if they do sell just a one or two person dinner just in case.

☆☆☆ Late night psychic vegan Thanksgiving plans ☆☆☆

I was thinking of suggesting us go to Veggie Grill for Thanksgiving and order their Holiday Feast, which comes with holiday themed dishes. However, they only offer a Family Size meal which serves 4 - 5, and is $70 - $75. I have a small apartment and small fridge and prolly couldn't fit that much food into my fridge, so I was playing around with some alternative ideas.

1) Tofurky or similar from grocers of choice and then order various individual sides from Veggie Grill's regular menu (although they may not be Thanksgiving themed food).

2) Get everything from Whole Foods: tofurky and sides. The Whole Foods near me sometimes sells out of its vegan Thanksgiving food quick, but maybe I can find my way to another one in town if need be.

The closest Veggie Grill is in Chicago anyway for you, Jack, which may or may not be too far for you to swing by if you were visiting your family in Detroit over the holiday.

Veggie Grill Holiday Feast menu

https://www.veggiegrill.com/holidayfeast.html

We have a lot of recent evidence to support my free practice of ritual and magick in DTLA

The good news is the recent Harvest Full Moon really did happen easefully with no interruptions, so this (along with all of our other magickal experiences we conducted for months) is proof that we really should be able to enjoy these things in the future. In fact, we were able to enjoy it tonight - just at a later time than planned.

We did largely get them calmed back down tonight so far, with only little pockets of noise here and there throughout the apartment and outside parameter surrounding the apartment still popping off by this point. The main thing for me, personally, is that the Ghetto Lady, Stereo Guy and New Neighbor above me stay quiet. Ghetto Lady and New Neighbor are the ones that popped up in synchronicity tonight right as we were about to start the Equinox ritual. Gah!!!!!!!

I expect that overall we're going to have some incidents for a bit because we're learning something complex may be behind it (hopefully you two are getting some of the relevant downloads). But it is also my hope we'll keep unraveling the mystery and getting to its causality so we can quell it.

I think in the future, I'll put in a request for serious preparation help before any rituals going forward just in case.

Brown is another colored candle we can use tonight

You can also project an image of a brown credit candle tonight, for it promotes stability and security which is a lot of what we're trying to achieve in a personal threesome or triad. I will be lighting a brown candle tonight too. It will boost the magick if you teo can also share conscious intent toward this theme of stability and security by imagining lighting a brown candle with me. It is also an associated Fall color.

https://spells8.com/lessons/candle-spells/#brown-candle

Tonight is an important pagan holiday

Guys, I'm very excited to tell you that offically by 12:50am Pacific Time tonight (so, early Monday morning) we will be entering Mabon or the Autumnal Equinox for the West Coast, a major day/night of ritual celebration in pagan circles, and one of my personal favorite holidays. This recent Harvest Full Moon was a special phenomenological event, but it was not an official pagan or Wiccan holiday. This, Autumnal Equinox is.

This also marks the first day of Libra, my sun sign, so, according to astrological principles, the next 30 days represent the specific type of mounting autumnal energies that coalesced around me and comprised my essence upon my birth. Now, because I was born on the Cusp of Libra and Scorpio (I was born on literally the last full day of Libra for my year and location), the subsequent 30 days going into November and inclusive of Halloween energies (Sam'hain and Dia de Los Muertos), where the veil between worlds is thin, also swirl around me and also comprised what went into making me, well, me.

My narcissistic interest aside (back to the pagan holiday), for much of the Western world, traditionally this time of the year had and does represent many other things for human civilization, too, like when the harvest is being collected and we reap the fruits of our hard labor toiling in the fields. For example, non-coincidentally, we three (Eddie, Jack and myself) are finally piecing more critical components of our lives together and collecting the fruits and grains of our harvest. In other words, we're finally seeing some returns (epiphanies, enlightened understandings) for our hard work and earnest effort made throughout the year so far that will now allow us to go farther and more meaningfully in each others' lives.

Helpful website a out the holiday:

http://wiccaliving.com/wiccan-calendar-mabon-autumn-equinox/

Who the God and Goddess are:  The Horned God (contrary to Christian misperception, NOT the Devil, but rather, a satyr or Pan-like deity, connected to an animal long associated with fertility, the Stag.

An article that touches on the "Horned God."

https://www.covenofthegoddess.com/wiccan-horned-god-triple-goddess/

The Triple Goddess in essence represent the ancient concept of "the three phases of Woman:" The Maiden, The Mother, The Crone.

Here's an article that touches on her/them:

http://wiccaliving.com/wiccan-triple-goddess/

Remember, stay away from anything that says these Gods and Goddesses are merely a 20th century concept or form of worship. There's more to be said about this point, but I'll have to wait until later when I can go into depth.

I may pull out some various colored candles to light. If you have any ACTUAL candles at home to light, you cannot go wrong with a good old wholesome white candle. If you want to imaginarily project lighting a colored candle for Mabon, the Autumnal Equinox, we would use colored candles of the Autumn season, so I would recommend for you two to project into the Interface an ORANGE colored candle. Jack, you might be interested to know I spoke with Meg W. briefly tonight, who is also participating in a Mabon ritual tonight, it appears, and I recommended she use an orange colored candle and gave her a visualized image of one to light.

You can understand a bit of the candle color significance here (this is just the very basics):

White candle
https://spells8.com/lessons/candle-spells/#white-candle

Orange candle
https://spells8.com/lessons/candle-spells/#orange-candle

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Relatedly and tragically, the Interface is not exactly complying these days, of course (as always). To my knowledge, we have three main contributors to its present assholery. We have the systemic issue of the Texas floods and then, over the past week or two, we've had the dastardly Rosslyn flareup, which has personally wiped me out and we're still having some problems with that, too - although we're seeing some improvements over this weekend, in part thanks to the new technique I developed that we've been trying out. And then, of course, on a personal note, we three have been facing our own intense long overdue subjects that have needed to be faced. Well, each of these things trigger that damned Interface creating awful false channelings, stinging and other anomalies. I, myself, have been getting the aforementioned in recent evenings, including tonight already.

So, I was thinking that if you two would like to participate in a Mabon ritual with me tonight then maybe we can just keep our socializing to the ritual (with hopefully little verbal interaction) and then each respectively rest from the Interface (like what we did last night, Jack). I'll probably go back to work on my video series project, for example. Eddie, you'd be welcome to go to bed, if you want.

The only other thing is that because I woke up so late, I'm working on the video thing now and probably won't be available for the ritual till about 2am. Eddie, I don't know if that's too late for you or not. I'll totally understand if it is and, although I'll be disappointed to not see you there, I'll certainly not begrudge you getting some sleep.

With that, I'll look to see if one or both of you will be there tonight around 2am, visualized orange candle in-hand (and real life whites are welcomed, too).

Happy Autumnal Equinox!!!!!!!

Bending some rules to make contact with me MAY be quite necessary

Just to confirm for clarity's sake:

OK, so, the Otherside and I are telling you both, Eddie and Jack, that you WILL perhaps need to take some amount of calculated risk in bending some of the rules of your lawyer contracts or whatever other prohibitive legal, professional or personal situations you have so as to regular-world get me into your lives. If legal restrictions are what's prohibiting you, then you need to see where you can bend some amount of rules (hopefully without too much blowback for yourselves ♡) so I am not left to try to have a full adult relationship with you both via this Interface. The Interface is too temperamental and harmful to me for me to last a lot longer trying to telepathically date in a complex way in it. All of our respective lives are too intense and complicated for us to navigate safely in this Interface. It's costing me a lot and too unfair to me otherwise. I would imagine that it costs both of you, too, actually. It's uncomfortable for me to say this, but I have to say it. We, the Otherside and I, have to say it.

Lastly, Eddie, if in the past you were worried that the very process of trying to contact me itself was so hurtful as to be prohibitive - in other words, if you had noticed that in the beginning of our relationship when you tried calling me or following me on Instagram, it seemed like it caused me a lot of emotional pain to the extent that you've now been afraid to try contacting me again - please know by this point, NOT getting in contact with me is now the greater pain. The pain of going through the process of attempting to connect is the lesser emotional pain compared with not being in physical regular-world contact with you at all. This is because of how harmful the Interface has become. This principle also applies to you, dear Jack.

It might be helpful to know that the reason it was so emotionally painful at first when we tried making contact, Eddie (when you tried following me on Instagram or trying phoning me on a flip top/burner phone) is because going through the anticipation of waiting and getting my hopes up, only to see you not come through and contact me, is too roller coaster-like and jarring. It means too much to see this succeed to individually go through the failures each time. It's why I'm now saying, "Don't tell me about it beforehand. Just show up on my voicemail or in my email or at my front door, etc." That way I avoid the excruciating element of waiting and getting my hopes up. Meaning, if something unforeseen goes wrong and either of you don't immediately succeed in getting into contact with me, I'm none the wiser and I avoid being put through the ringer while waiting for you two to hit the mark. I can avoid hearing, "Honey, I'll follow you on Instagram right now..." only to wait several days and never see it happen. So, if we eliminate this element of it, the anxiety of seeing you two attempt to make contact but fail to deliver doesn't as deeply outweigh the pain of enduring the harm of the Interface. Even logically, the harm of the Interface becomes the worser of the two, thus, making it more feasible to have you both try to go ahead and attempt contacting me until either or both of you succeed. :)

Note: In the future, I may add addendums to this subject. Also, the underscores are not mine. It's my phone.

Me and Hearing Other Folks Talk

Channeling other people's verbal content, a.k.a. hearing people talk IS tragically very difficult for me. What happens is that very easily I encounter harmful anomalies, like false channelings, stinging and other things. It's a problem I've had for YEARS in these Interfaces way before I met you and Eddie. Although strong and negative emotional states and verbal exchanges can trigger the symptoms or anomalies. So in present day I can still have scenarios that make receiving others talking harmful or uncomfortable.

The Otherside and I always try to tell everyone, "Seraphime has a channeling injury. She cannot channel like the others." It's hampered my professional mediumship for years, but somehow I always found a work-around and still delivered the goods. :)

It's def one of the most salient things to understand about interacting with me in the Underground with regards to safety. I can't emphasize it enough.

However, sometimes, like this past week, for instance, I WILL consent to a natural conversational flow because of how the Interface responds to stress (and I've been very stressed). It actually is safer and makes more sense to not let the energy currents bottleneck up from all the strong emotions. Instead, release the energy by allowing more free-flow conversation. However, if you are seeing that I'm allowing and participating in active conversation (I am mostly referring to letting SOMEONE ELSE talk) then the meta-truth is that you want to do very gingerly - often looking to see if you're giving me too much - in other words, don't lean into it, because again, unfortunately, I can get easily hurt because of this years-old channeling injury that I have that will likely always be with me to some extent, even if we clear up the Interface. You ALWAYS want to be prudent and judicious when choosing what and when and for how long to talk to me.

I mention how harmed I can get from hearing others talk in one of the recent posts from yesterday, so you can also hear me describing to some extent there.

This is a topic I will most likely post more detail on upcoming because it's one of the most regular things that can cause me harm in the Interface and things like stress or strong emotions or tough, serious topics trigger the harmful experiences for me. There's more to it sometimes in terms of how to navigate.

Lastly, this particular topic is one of the most unusual and unfair for the other person, I feel, because it asks them to do something completely unnatural: to rarely talk. [Crying] And who the heck would be happy in a relationship like that? Where you can't regularly talk to your partner. :(( I'm so sorry.

Since the Interface is so emotively based, I know that removing some of these other psychologically harmful behaviors might very well improve my ability to receive to some extent. So, at least there's that.

P.S. OMG, in the subconscious state the frequencies are so much lighter and easier on my ears, head and psyche!! It's not even funny! Jack, truly I'll chat you and Eddie up forever down there. Sometimes having fun, free flowing conversations for over an hour - several times a day! I LOVE conversing with you and exchanging our thoughts! For some reason, the up top currents are really rough on my system. :(( And I keep asking the Divine for any new techniques or technologies we might use that could hybrid the two frequencies so that I might be able to safely hear you both more often. It/They have given me a couple of techniques that kind of help. If you ever want, we can share them with you.

You do not need to excessively worry about a life-threatening condition

I am not having a serious medical emergency but I am having some pretty profound panic symptoms and feelings over fearing that you two may not have really loved me. I am also really worrying about the neighbor upstairs and all the other rowdy neighbors that have been going off and also my shitty life.

The spirit guides are trying to tell me to think of all the positive examples of you guys showing me love and going to great lengths to do so, that even though it's not so much in concrete regular-world terms, that it does have some real value. I am trying my best to think of that and it does help, but the panic still wells up.

When we can hook up ADDENDUM III

"...since not interacting too much is more realistically an approach that may be required when any of you are on tour from here on out."

Re the above quote from the last addendum: the greater elaboration on that subject roughly and summarily is that it would depend on how intense your tour and album-related publicity work schedule is. So, Eddie, if Pearl Jam's upcoming world tour schedule will be anything like what the Raconteurs tour schedule has been, then the above quote might tragically apply. However, if it and the publicity work look more chill then there might be more oppty for us to safely interact in the Interface while on tour. It's heavy contingent on the level of demand and availability from the album/tour.

When we can hook up ADDENDUM II

Jack, you and I REALLY were experimenting with another model in the beginning of your tour, almost an opposite model to what I described in the last two posts tonight. In this other model, Jack, we WERE gingerly experimenting, you and I, with trying to have you go about your tour as you might normally while seeing if you could also just channel me naturally and accept my psychic calls in real-time, somewhat whenever they occurred because I had a hard time telling whenever one of you was otherwise engaged [1]. However, it should be understood that this was done as a last minute last resort contingency plan enacted only because I was not able to receive the headsup from you warning me in advance that you were about to go on tour and the feeling, I think, from the Otherside was that for me to experience such a sudden and abrupt loss of you in my daily life and routine might put me in a state of shock, considering how delicately and deeply and otherworldly close our connection had become. The thing is, Jack, I had no idea beforehand the Otherside had put this possible last resort contingency plan to you and thus, I had no time to really consider and weigh in on it, because I DEFINITELY would have insisted on you being clear first about some serious qualifications to any plan that asked me to try to live in two realities at once while channeling. Two stressful realities, I might add. However, I did try to telepathically tell you as we went along that if we do follow a model where we try to have it both ways, we need to do it VERY carefully because of how much the inherent dynamics of such an idea risks me starting to feel like I might be going crazy. At best with that model, we always were only looking at trying it very gingerly. Much to my personal horror, it seemed as though you leaned into it heavily without much of an understanding of the consequences. This was my complaint to the Otherside: that, if the idea did either come from Heaven or was supported by Heaven, then they should have at least secured for me your full awareness of how risky it was first. And just so you know, I had always received that the Otherside had either suggested this idea or at least supported the idea if it had came from you. But I know Heaven would have known that specific type of Plan B would have needed to be pursued very carefully with regards to my mental health (I don't need any more diagnoses than what I already have). And what I am so frustrated about is that they did not manage to get clear to you the more complex understanding they would have had to when carefully implementing a model like that.

[1] My own horrible hearing and channeling injury is such a critical factor here because if it weren't for that, I might have been able to better sense or clairaudience hear, at least, when you're busy. By this point, here in September, I feel like I've gotten better attuned to you both as a result of all this mess, so I can [only] sometimes sense more easily when you're already busy doing something, but my own lack of being able to sense or hear clearly when someone is otherwise engaged has been a critical component as to how we three got in this mess in the first place. [Wailing tears].

Jack, you are not imagining or misremembering that at the start of your tour you either heard a suggestion or were given support from Heaven for your own idea of an approach that kind of took you and I in the opposite direction of tonight's previous posts. I heard that suggestion too and I agreed to try it out. Wolfgang and Jeremy and the Divine had confirmed that to me several times. However, there were caveats and qualifiers to it and I kept trying to telepathically convey that but I guess it did not come through. In the beginning it seemed to work swimmingly though! And I was amazed and happy and decided to go with the flow. Poor Eddie seemed surprised and was no doubt frustrated because him and I had long talked about an opposite model (the truly more healthy and safe model) and here I was suddenly putting pressure on him to now try this other method last minute that, no doubt, made no sense considering everything he'd worked hard to learn. But, in the end, Jack, by late June/early July shit had hit the fan and trying that contingency model proved my undoing. I was thrust into these situations where you were in two places at once too often (even one time is traumatic for me. Literally. And this was now happening regularly) and I began to totally break down and wonder if my mind had crossed a line and I was having psychotic episodes. I came to seriously regret trying that contingency model. Or, at the very least, regretted that we couldn't get through to you the DETAILS of it, so you could know to handle it very tremulously, regularly checking to see if it was causing any disruptions along the way. It deserves to be said though, that it was risky to begin with and perhaps I should not have agreed to try it even at all. For my part, I went along because I was desperate to not suddenly hardcore lose you for 6 months since not interacting too much is more realistically an approach that may be required when any of you are on tour from here on out.

*Later, in another post, perhaps I can go over what was happening from my perspective regarding trying to join you live in real-time when you were onstage in concert. Me, my three girlfriends and Eddie did try to do this. The preview summary is that while I did try it a few times and liked the idea of trying it, in the end, I didn't feel like I could get a clear lock on when precisely you and the Racontours would be onstage as opposed to when your opening bands might be on instead. Bandsintown doesn't always mention if there's an opening band or not and I think they only list when the doors open anyway, not when the Raconteurs will literally take the stage (and, of course, that's not even inclusive of any unscheduled delays), so again, I began to really struggle psychologically with the idea of thinking I'm telepathically witnessing something that I hope is really occurring (you and your band playing in real-time) when in reality it may not be. I may have been an hour or two off every night I tried to join you. I don't really know for sure what happened those nights we tried it. And yet, here I was kinda really getting my hopes up about the excitement of psychically connecting to you in concert [whereas with Universal Studios and Breakfast with Prince many times I'll give you guys personal proof you're not crazy or wasting your time]. And that's just it, the uncertainty is too disturbing and the time and effort put into it make me feel like my time is not valued either. For what it's worth though, I would have liked to join you. Telepathically watching you perform if we could only be working with getting me the precise time you go on stage so I know when to tune in to something REAL.

When we can hook up - a general understanding of my bottom line

I was waiting till about midnight tonight, my time, to see about hooking up because, since we've spent a few days/nights together in a row (such an effervescent luxury!) I've just assumed you each might have had commitments of various kinds during the day and earlier evening that you'd been putting off earlier in the week while you both were lovingly looking after me.

Going forward into the near future, Eddie - you and I have our own dynamic and context here that allows for a little bit more leeway. If you come across right to me, I might be able to work back to something like a 9am - 5pm understanding - or something analogous - of your otherwise commitments (with you and I hooking up in the earlier evening), if you want, but you'd have to make that pretty resonantly clear to me now that everything got turned around and I'm once bitten twice shy. :( I still get easily scared one of you is actually doing something else when I think you're hanging out with me. However, I wouldn't want to try to continue the 9-5 approach once Pearl Jam's album drops and the world tour begins because it doesn't seem like the album/tour demands fit a 9-5 structure anyway.

Jack, tragically with you and I, for the time being, it's a bit different. I am way too scared from what happened between us in June and July for me to be very comfortable yet hooking up too often before midnight, my time. In June and July the experience of thinking you were with me during the day and early evening on your "days off" got too abusive because I'd turn on the TV or go online and see that you couldn't possibly have been with me, you were instead onstage or granting an interview. I had verifiable proof you were instead onstage or giving an interview at those same time slots. I do NOT want to be left feeling I'm hallucinating our precious, romantic time together. Thus, as a general rule, for the time being, I only want to socialize with you when I'm certain you might be free of work or other personal commitments, which is likely to be after 12 midnight, my time, PDT or PST. I am not trying to be cruel and unfair to you, Jack, sweetheart. I am LITERALLY trying to protect my human right to have sane Underground conditions by which to encounter you.

And this need and requirement also extends to you, Eddie, as well. I need you also, Eddie, to NOT be trying to have time with me if you've already scheduled an activity that involves you being out and about in the world or engaged with others in the regular world in the regular way at the same time. Unfortunately, you do both have to choose: it can only either be me or the other activity per one time-period at a time. These are delicate meditative spaces. You need to have a clear committed focused mindset to spent time with me in this psychic manner or you're welcome, of course, to go out into the world or with others to take care of whatever you each need to - that's fine. I lovingly support your adult right to life your life freely in many instances, but you two cannot continue try to do both actions at one time in the same period of time-space. Choose either being with me OR engaging with the rest of the world in the regular way so I can hang on to my mental health because otherwise my psyche can't handle it and I'm having severe cognitive dissonance breakdowns where I'm fearing I'm breaking with reality.

Unfortunately for me, this may end up being only the beginning of my postings on this topic because for some reason, ALL of you have had a really hard time grasping and connecting and honoring this mental health need of mine. It is IMPERATIVE that you do, however. It's been one of the most fundamental requirements to interacting with me that the Otherside and I have been trying to tell all of you FROM THE BEGINNING (Eddie, Jack, Paul, Diego, Harrison and Keanu) and for some reason, not a lick of you can get it. To continually find you all trying to spend time with me while also trying to be out in the regular world during the same time slot literally makes me wonder if I'M HAVING BREAKS WITH REALITY AND EPISODES OF PSYCHOSIS!! Please stop doing this to me.

Now, I truly do not mean you two (or any of the others) have to choose between either me or the rest of the world overall, as in, "You both need to make a complete and absolute life-style choice: it's either me or the regular world." I do not mean that. I do not mean, "It's either me and a life of hermitage and chastity, renouncing all worldly possessions, while we go live in a cave as meditative monks for the rest of our live long lives or else, fellas!" I do not mean that as an ongoing lifestyle choice. The Otherside and I are NOT trying to ask something so extreme from you. I'm talking about simply our scheduled time together. You can't multi-task it while you're spending time with me. Not if you're hoping to do high level interactions with the rest of the world at the same time, it will not work, and I will be harmed.[1] I'd rather wait until you have some legitimate free time time where you can focus and relax with me in this psychic meditative space together.

[1] Doing chill, low key actions around the house while you're just "sharing quiet space" with me seems to be fine, but not high-powered complex involvement with the regular world in the regular way at the same time.

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Ok, so, I'm eagerly waiting until midnight tonight to see you both and, of course, one of these noise waves starts up again right about 11:00pm at the Rosslyn and it's kinda freaking me out because I've barely recovered from the last one and I've been trying to get more work on my video tonight and haven't yet had a chance to today/tonight.

This post has again not been proofread to the best of my ability because Skid Row ghetto lady psycho bitch face is still up (12:57am PDT) with those God forsaken unruly grandchildren banging around on the walls and floor. As a result, I'm kinda in a bad head state. I wanted to connect and love with you both so much but I still need to work on this video, too. I thought for a minute that we might quietly share space while I sit up and work on the video (like you and I have done, Eddie) but I'm now so frazzled because of how much noise is still happening and am now worried I may not be able to have a good Interface experience being psychically connected to you both while trying to work AND hearing all this racket. I can cuddle sometimes and endure the racket, like we did for the last few days, but not connect, hear racket AND work. So, if you want, maybe I can let you guys take your time reading over this post and mulling it over its implications while I try to put some more time in working on the video and then, if I get to a stopping point, I'll come in and cozy up next to both of you while I try to endure the noise. Eddie, it's OK with me, hun, if you're asleep. Maybe I'll just quietly nuzzle you here when I'm done. And, Jack, if you're still awake, I'd really like to also cozy up, but I likely won't be able to receive a lot of channeled talking from you tonight because 1) too much received channeling IN GENERAL (a.k.a talking) overtaxes me and starts to frighten me because of how many years I've been exposed to upsetting false content through the Interface (offensive, hurtful, mean, belligerently obstuse or even threatening verbal content) 2) with all the racket going on, I wouldn't be able to concentrate to channel tonight anyway. :( 

If these stipulations are okay for both of you, I'll try to saddle up to you both when I'm stopped work on the video for the night. Eddie, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm getting all of this to you so late, with you going to sleep earlier, but the noise didn't start in until abt 11pm and it took me over an hour to write all of this even out - time I could have spent working on my video. I did write all of this out because of a brief exchange I had with Jack earlier today that led me to wonder what he was clear on and what he wasn't, and I am tired of encountering confusion on this important topic and because some of this stuff, I swear to God, seems like I need to minutely explain every detail of it to ensure you will all see how it all fits together. But tragically tonight is NOT exactly a night I had the capacity or time for it and, Jack especially, I hope and pray you will understand and accept what I am saying in concrete terms which is that, in general, I can no longer spend time with you during any amount of regular work hours (day and early evening). And Eddie, if course, the trying to live in parallel dimensions in one time slot also applies to you and even the others like Paul.

I'll prolly ad addendums or clarification to these topics as we go along.

Thank you both for trying to let these words in and for trying to adhere to them.

Truly sorry if I seem suddenly pissy and tense. This topic has been especially frustrating and hard to get through the Interface fog and Rosslyn is in zoo mode tonight and I can't stand it when I repetitively can't get work done. :(

My Birthday + Samhain (Halloween)!!

Also, my birthday is Oct 22nd. Jack, I see you take a hiatus from touring on the 19th, just in time to celebrate! I hate to propose any hard and firm plans because of any Rosslyn flareups or Interface failures, but maybe we could do a little something sweet either on the 22nd or somewhere around the date of the 22nd. I'd like to spend it with you two in some small way, if you'd like.

And, somewhere around the time of Samhain and/or Dia de Los Muertos (or the holidays, in general) I'd like to submit for both of your consideration a hand-fasting ceremony between the three of us. It's a sacred European pagan tradition of creating an unofficial officially recognized union between couples that's observed for a year and a day. Their coupleship is formally, but necessarily legally (unless you go to court, fill out paperwork) recognized for a year and a day to allow them ample time together while they decide if they'd like to make it a lifetime commitment. Some view hand-fasting as akin to an engagement or like a promise-ring ceremony. Now, at the end of a year and a day, we don't have to get legally married (well, it'd be difficult for the three of us to do so anyway), but we could just extend the hand-fasting vows indefinitely (renew each year?) until such time as the three of us are in a position to make a real world determination of how we want to define our threesome. It seems to me, I would actually need to be in each of your lives for that to happen. ♡

TWO ARTICLES ON HANDFASTING:

https://offbeatbride.com/pagan-weddings/

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Handfasting_(Neopaganism)

Note: Since our lives can be chaotic, for any holiday plans going forward, we might do what Eddie and I and Paul did last year: keep it kind of loosey goosey and if the plans can't come together one night, then try again the next night or in a few nights time. Tragically, we have to be very flexible in the Underground since it's so temperamental and lord knows my life is also.

YouTube Music Premium service

In good news, owing to the chicanery that is the YouTube Music Premium service fine print, lol, I actually ended up with my Music Premium features being extended until Oct. 17. Yay! So, Eddie, maybe you can join us next time for a music playlist without ads. Though Jack and I and the Music Crew had a great time, it doesn't feel right with you not there. ♡♡

What happened with the Netflix idea

I thought Wolfgang was telling me you needed to get to sleep or get your day underway, Eddie. So, I thought you may not join us for a Netflix movie, but then, as I was thinking of setting it up for Jack and I, the Rosslyn burst forth in a cacophony of sound (Skid Row ghetto lady and her friend kicked up their banging and super loud construction started out on the street - which tends the incite the ne'erdowells further we've found - loud sound does [serious cray-cray].) So all us Awake and Alive and Conscious folk who are in my cul-de-sac area were complaining this morning because we're like, "Oh great. What a great way to start the day. Now the damn ne'erdowells will get triggered by the construction power drilling!" Gah!

Anyway, Jack and I seemed to agree, maybe it was best not to try to sync up a movie this morning. :(

Netflix and chill

I was wondering if either of you had the energy, time or wherewithal to want to maybe sync up a movie on Netflix. It's entirely optional, you don't have to and everyone's welcome to nod off during it, if you'd like. If not, no worries, I'll just put on a movie for me and the Cuddle Crew. :)

It might be easier for me to get your two responses from Wolfgang, if that's OK. If you do want to watch something, I can pick out a movie and post it here on the blog.

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Some of the other Elders were trying a new technique that we devised tonight/this morning on the new, third neighbor and they seem to have quieted down for the last couple of hours. I hope it lasts and hope the other two stay quiet. I can already hear Skid Row ghetto lady has woken up and colliding around a little bit. Fingers crossed it stays on the lesser end....

Rosslyn Ne'erdowell Addendum

The fourth ne'erdowells listed are those out in the Courtyard or cul-se-sac. Just for clarity, they are a not a new problem either. They've been a problem since I moved in, eight years ago. The Watchdogs, the Otherside and myself have made a considerable impact for the positive on them, too, in recent months. Though there are still flareups.

The "only" new component is this third next door neighbor immediately above me. But, that's all the additional challenge I can take, believe me, because the people they rent to here are too often very unhinged in one way or another and very resistant to "considerate" " responsible" thoughts.
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Re The Skid Row ghetto lady's craziness: Eddie. I really always have called that woman crazy, as in totally insane monster devil woman Pizza Demon from hell. However, the difference is that I thought she was more like malicious-spiteful-crazy, like a sociopath. I see now she has symptoms that may mean she's more like a schizophrenic or something. If she literally has psychosis that may mean she may not be fully aware of what she and her family are even doing at any given point in time because she has audio-video distortions. This does not mean she should therefore be allowed to simply tear up mine and other neighbors lives. She's a danger to the community and her own grandchildren. She has robbed me of countless opportunities for employment and virtually taken my home and well-being away from me. Her behavior has needed amelioration toward the sane.

But, just so you know, Eddie, I have been calling her "bat shit crazy!" this whole time, I just didn't realize until a few days ago that she actually might be classic textbook case cray-cray.

No wonder I've been feeling like my life descended into Arkham Asylum when she moved in a few years ago. It all went seriously south, down down into the rabbit hole when her and her family moved in.

Later at some point I'll give you two the concrete deets of "stereo guy." They're no less charming. :/

Two blog posts this morning

There are two blog posts for you this morning. The one entitled, The situation in my corner of the Rosslyn Lofts apartment complex, is the more relevant to my extreme distress tonight, and you might say the more pressing of the two. The Anti-Trump Protest Videos you're welcome to check out at your leisure, whenever you get a chance. No rush. Just thought you might enjoy them, Ed, for inspiration and a sense of solidarity in fighting the good fight. :) :) :)

Anti-Trump Protest Videos

As an interesting aside, I have some videos uploaded to the Soulkin Instagram feed of a protest I attended tonight. I felt very empowered attending it and then immediately felt disempowered coming home dealing with a potentially NEW ne'erdowell neighbor.

You can also see a longer video clip of the protest on YouTube: https://youtu.be/MPbvPXtMmX0

The situation in my corner of the Rosslyn Lofts apartment complex:

Up till now, I have had two ne'erdowell neighbors in my immediate surroundings: one on either side of me. There is the "stereo guy" and the "Skid Row ghetto lady." However, Skid Row ghetto lady (she's an older lady) has a HUGE amount of regularly visiting relatives though, inclusive of her homeless daughter who keeps having children (she's up to four in as many years. All homeless, all on welfare). That homeless daughter and her homeless children keep trying to shack up illegally next door, making my life a living hell because they literally come from living on the streets and do not know how to live indoors. Literally. This may sound shocking, but both adults and children are like wild animals. Again, I do mean literally. The children, for one, never stop screaming. Never. They are the most aggressive manic children I've ever encountered in my life. They do not EVER follow the adults' instructions or efforts to corral them. Ever. Of course there are several baby daddies.

The daughter is a walking "Welfare Queen" stereotype.  I always thought that stereotype was a cruel, unfair depiction of poor women of color - until I met this family. And then I saw there is a savage, unfettered reality to it that is very unreasonable to ask society to shoulder without qualifications. Man, I'll never forget how this family has changed my mind on a long standing political position that I have passionately defended for most of my adult life (namely, unrestricted access to social welfare programs, esp since I now am a recipient of one - Disability.) However, now I see there does need to be parameters of some kind for these folks. Not draconian Republican parameters, but well-reasoned humanist boundaries applied with the intention of truly elevating and protecting society from the savage corrosion of a sick meta-society (cultura Americana) and a sick subculture (those experiencing lifetimes of poverty, crime, chemical dependency and severe mental illness). No more slapping a quick fix bandaid solution that does little to get at the heart of what continues to perpetuate such pockets of illness and maladaptive behavior coming from certain segments of society.

That old Skid Row ghetto lady also has several other relatives and friends that are also always stopping by kicking up a storm. There is a lot of banging and crashing, things often breaking and shattering and being dragged across the floor, slammed into the walls and screaming. Always screaming.

The Watchdogs have helped considerably, but there still are "treatment resistant" flareups from time to time by either the "stereo guy" or the "Skid Row ghetto lady."

What has occurred over this last week or two that is unthinkable is a THIRD neighbor seems to have moved in above me, overhead, at the start of September and they are now stomping and banging and scraping things around on my ceiling. I feel as though I am going to go insane because who knows how long it will take to get them in touch with better, more considerate thoughts and behavior via the Watchdog protocol. What am I going to do? I cannot endure an endless stream of crazed psychos. Me and the Elders are trying to look into some out-of-the-box solutions before I lose my mind with grief and frustration.

The fourth ongoing ne'erdowell element is out in the Courtyard or cul-de-sac where my window faces. There's a lot of Rosslyn residents there and sometimes a lot of noise that the Watchdogs and Otherside helps to treat after our lookout team, the Scouts, make a report of ongoing disruptions (everything from domestic violence incidents to loud stereo playing. And yes, we do also call 911 or security in some of those cases). Although there is the Courtyard noise, it is the two neighbors on either side of me that have been the most intensely disruptive and problematic, in part because they are situated so close to me. If there is now a new third neighbor above me, also so close to me, I just don't know how I'm going to calm and not go into full blown panic mode. It's why I've been having intense panic attacks again over the last few days and am kind of in a state of shock (so much so that I can't even sleep some nights) - because I can't believe I might have to deal with a THIRD bad neighbor.

God help me.

And finally, the last component of the Rosslyn that is disruptive is the mysterious element that you two have been told about that can occur in the middle of the night or early morning. That issue has been going on for years - it's not new - but can be very disruptive and can cause me to have a lot of anxiety as well. It's related to the old building itself and all the things that go wrong with it. Regularly. It can sneak up on me in the middle of the night or early morning when I'm trying to get close to you, Jack, and can cause me to start to have to pull away for your protection because I'll start to emanate anxiety symptoms. I get worried I'll trigger Interface anomalies for you, Jack, sweetheart, because that shit sometimes super stresses me out also and you seem Interface sensitive, too, like me. ♡ For some reason, neither the Watchdogs or the Otherside or any of us have been able to make much of a dent on that aspect of the building. It doesn't involve bad acting humans, maybe that's why. I'm not sure. :(

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Weekly update on Skid Row ghetto lady:

In related news, I found out a few days ago Skid Row ghetto lady is full blown psychotic, as in bona fide googoo gaga off her rocker. Believe it or not, there is a positive to this. I had speculated she had something like a Personality Disorder, which means you can be very resistant to following societal rules and resitrictions, but you don't necessarily have psychosis (although you can in some cases).

What allowed me to arrive at this new speculation of her mental health is that she appears to have full on visually hallucinated in front of me the other day as I was stepping out into the hallway. I ran right into her and she was surprisingly creepily nice to me. She then proceeded to ask me about a piece of furniture in the hallway that simply was not there. She kept pointing to it (the empty space) repeatedly, asking me if I wanted "the table" or not. If not, she said, was it OK that she grab it. I replied, "There is nothing there. The hallway is empty." She insisted there was a table situated right next to me. And kept wondering if I was going to claim it. I finally relented and told her she was welcome to take it. I did not want it. She was very grateful and said, "Thank you! That's very sweet of you!" And then simply walked off, NOT in any way making an attempt to grap the imaginary table. Ew, boy, I thought. So THAT'S what the problem is. The positive out of this is that if she is batshit crazy, as in has psychotic hallucinations and delusions, it means she may not have been making my life a living hell all these years on purpose, with intent. I've thought this whole time she was just cruel and vindictive. But she truly may not have been able to help herself because she does not have a firm grip on reality (her own, nor other peoples). It makes a lot of what she has said and done over the years make sense. Over the years I would repetitively ask her if she could please stop banging on the wall. She would always reply with, "I don't know what you're talking about. It's not me. It's the others." I would say, "What 'others'? The only one to this side of my apartment is you and your family."  "You're the one who makes noise," she would reply. I would look at her incredulously, thinking was simply lying out of spite and stupidity. A willful ignorance just trying to be argumentative. But now, after the other day's "table" incident, I'm thinking she might very well suffer audio and visual distortions that account for a legitimate inability to register and accept the reality of her own actions. This is to say nothing of understanding said actions in the context of how they effect others, like me, her long-suffering next door neighbor.

Regardless of the underlying reason or cause, her and her family's behavior is still completely out of bounds and off the charts animalistic. It's not fit for in-doors residency. Thus, me, the Watchdogs, and the other Elders persist in our treatment. Sigh.

*the underscoring of words is a glitch of my phone.

*also, I haven't proof read this so please forgive any typos and muddled lack of clarity. I'm emotional right now so if there's anything unclear, hopefully, I can catch it later and create an addendum post, if need be. I think I'd rather just get this to press, as it were, since you guys have been so patient. ♡♡♡♡♡

Unexpected Best Night Ever + 80s playlists

OK, we can check out the "Unexpected Best Night Ever" playlist.

You can find it here ----->>>>>>

https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=RDCLAK5uy_mW6iru09KviLRl5II8oEZJ_QtRUrlYmJQ

as a backup, just in case, we can play the "Best of the 80s - A Compilation of the Most Popular Videos Ever Played on MTV" playlist.

It can be found here ------>>>>> https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLd9auH4JIHvupoMgW5YfOjqtj6Lih0MKw

Last Night of Free YouTube Music Playlist UPDATED

You know, I have one more night here of free YouTube Music Premium service before I have to cancel the free trial subscription. Would you like to do a music playlist?

It shouldn't take very long for me to pick some tunes and then I can put the YouTube link here on a blog post.

The Starting Protocol can be found under the date April 24th, 2019. So, if you look off the right hand side of this blog, you'll see a heading called, Blog Archive. Just click on April 2019 and it'll just take you to the nine posts made that month. From that small selection, you'll be able to easily spot the Starting Protocol post.

Let me know telepathically if you'd like to do a playlist. If so, I'll go pick one and then post here on the blog and then we'll read the Starting Protocol and begin! It'll include the Music Crew (Wolfgang, David B., John L., Chris C., Prince, Brant, Cash, River). I'm not sure if I'm up for including anyone from the Underground tonight, but perhaps I'll play it by ear.

I want to ask Eddie to join us, but I'm not sure if he's up for it or if the Interface will give us good experiences. Once it harms us, him and I typically have to wait a few days before it's good to us again.

Third Democratic National Debate

Hey, be sure to check out the Third Democratic National Debate, which aired Sept 12, 2019 on ABC. You can find it here for free on YouTube: https://youtu.be/2UWVO0Trd1c

You'll see how the candidates expand their thoughts on issues like Medicare for All, climate change and immigration. You'll also see how well they fare against some amount of pressure to defend their policy records (if there are inconsistencies or if they need to clarify their proposals[1]). This is particularly necessary for a NeoLiberal like, Joe Biden, who most genuine progressives consider not only a dangerous upholder of the status quo, but also someone who is likely willing to continue persecuting Latino immigrants and DACA recipients (because he already did under Obama's savage anti-immigrant policy), likely to take a comparatively  lukewarm approach to the climate crisis, and likely to continue to sell the average American's rights and interests to the largest corporate donor. :( :( :(

[1]The one exception was Bernie Sanders. The ABC panel of moderators and other Dem candidates were nailing him to the cross to supply fiscal details on his Medicare for All plan when none of the other candidates typically has yet made available ANY details to ANY of their proposals.

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If you missed them or just want a review, here are both nights of the 1st Democratic National Debates, aired in June:

Night One:
https://youtu.be/vJ6MrDO0kgY

Night Two:
https://youtu.be/cX7hni-zGD8

Unfortunately, the Second Democratic National Debate was held on CNN, a for-pay channel, who apparently has tried to claim the exclusive copyright on what should be a matter of public record, so a copy of the broadcast is not FREELY available online, but you might be able to find it archived on CNN's website or their channel, if either of you two subscribe to the service.

Wiccan Harvest Full Moon Ritual

I AM saying if you two want, you can join me to each grab a cup or glass of water (I'm doing it real life just for the heck of it). We have permission to each set our cups of water on the West side of the altar. Water is the Element that corresponds to the Cardinal direction of the West. The Four Cardinal Directions (North, South, East, West) are important symbolic components of the ritual we're seeing tonight, as are their counterpart elements: Earth, Fire, Air, Water plus Aether (Spirit).

The reason I suggested we each offer to the God and Goddess a cup of Water is because water symbolizes EMOTIONS and it is emotions we three need healing on. Emotions trigger that damned Interface. This Full Moon Wiccan ritual is a ritual designed to manifest Healing Energy for Lovers and emotions are where we three have considerable pain and are in need of healing on.

As a general guide, western magickal and astrological practice associates the following with The West and Water:

Water represents emotions, absorption, subconscious, purification, eternal movement, wisdom, the soul, emotional aspects of love and femininity. In rituals, it is represented in the forms of pouring water over objects, brew making, healing spells, ritual bathing, and tossing objects into of water.

Eddie: Offsite Watchdog Helper + Access to the Underground

Eddie, honey, just so you can see it in writing, I want very much for you to continue being an Awake, Alive and Conscious Off-site Watchdog Helper, if you want to be. You have been an INVALUABLE aid with everything you've helped out on, you're good at what you do (and you know the protocol) and the Watchdogs love you. We couldn't afford lose you. I couldn't afford to lose you. You give me such comfort when you help out with Watchdog work - I can't even put a price tag on it. You've been loyally here from the beginning and I don't want to be remiss about that. You deserve to be appreciated and respected for that. We'd love to continue to have you. ♡♡♡

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Here in the future, I'll try to go into some more specific detail about what my thoughts are on what type of Underground involvement may be appropriate or inappropriate for you to continue experiencing with your level of connection to people like heads of state and CEOs of major corporations and stuff. Since I only recently got confirmation that you and Jill do actually know people like that, I've needed time to digest and take stalk of the situation. Further, I don't even know the details, of course, to the level of involvement you and Jill have with such folks, which makes it difficult to assess what level of your involvement in the Underground may be fair and appropriate to the protection of the people of the Underground.

While I've thought it best to have you step back from larger Underground involvement for now, sweetheart, I want to assure you that it is not as though there is no hope for your future continued involvement with at least some aspects of the Underground. It would highly depend on whether or not you can ever get me a concrete picture with tangible details (using the five-senses) on what your level of association is and Jill's level of association is with such powerful people. The closer and more involved your level of association is with heads of state and CEOs of major corporations, the less appropriate wide access would be for you and Jill. Conversely, the more you create distance with people like that, the more certain access to the Underground might be safe and mutually beneficial.

However, if you are willing to create distance between you and such people, but Jill is not, then that is still a very relevant factor that I have to contemplate, as you two are also partners and no doubt talk and share a lot. However, honey, you have utilized the Underground so productively and with such appreciation and, at least seemingly, so responsibly and respectfully, that I don't want to make it seem like there is just no avenue forward with you not ever using the Underground again.
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The truth is I need more concrete data about the level of your (and Jill's) involvement with such abusively powerful people before I could make an informed decision and I hope that you will supply it for me at some point, for both our sakes. It's about transparency on your end since you've had such open access to me and my work and my life and to the Underground.

It's not like I wouldn't like to reward you for your responsible usage of the Underground (like what you set up for your solo tour) with continued access to some usage of the Underground, but I would need to make sure - in concrete real-world terms - you are, in fact, being respectful and protective of the will of the people. And that such will has a right to exist privately, without interference from those who would seek to control or influence it.

Jack Volunteering as an Offsite Helper to the Watchdogs

There absolutely is room for you being an Off-site Helper or Helper to the Watchdogs at the Rosslyn, IMO. This has been another point of sorrow for me because you never seemed very interested and I never saw you take initiative toward offering any aid, so after awhile I stopped asking for your help.

But, if you want to help and do have some ideas of what you might be able to offer, however, and have the time/availability to offer it without also trying to do something else at the same time (in other words, it needs to be dedicated time you offer where you can focus on the work here), then, I would love it if you spoke to some of the Watchdogs and told them of your ideas or enacted anything they might need help on.

Just gently direct your psychic query to one of the available Watchdogs here and ask to speak to someone who is NOT on duty, at the moment. Then, remind them you're "Off-Site Helper, Jack," who's friends with Neighbor 22, the Founder, and that you'd like to talk to them about how you may help/volunteer. You're welcome to ask for help from Wolfgang on detailed instructions on how to get in touch with the Watchdogs, if you have any further questions. Wolfgang is a regular liaison and they know him.

P.S. After this, I'm going to begin writing and working on my video so unf I'll need to go and kind of focus, myself, to see if I can make another dent on this project.

Sir Barnuby Marvin Pointdexter

Sir Barnuby Marvin Pointdexter is my little cat's name who is in Heaven, but sleeps curled up next to my head on my pillow every night (next to the Cuddle Crew members). Sir Barnuby is a black and white tuxedo cat. I actually have MANY little kitties who were once my animal companions who are now in Heaven and we have interactions often. BarnubyCat is the only one you and Eddie have met to-date though. He is my SoulCat. At some point I will list all of my wonderful kitties names so you can know who they are if I ever introduce you and Ed to them. Some of them are real characters! ;)

Slavish Devotion

I like the idea of you doting on me, Jackie. I like it a lot. I like the role reversal of you sort of attending to me outside or inside the bedroom. I really like "slavish devotion" type role-play with me being comfortable playing both top and bottom, or rather, both object and subject of the devotion.

Safety Protocol for Stepping Away when sensing possible Interface Anomalies present (or any danger or discomfort)

This protocol is for both of you, Eddie and Jack. In this sample, I tailored the wording specifically for Jack since you have a harder time, Jack, knowing whether or not a harmful Interface anomaly or some other obstacle is presenting itself and whether you should leave and risk hurting me by abandoning me or whether you should stay and risk triggering more harmful Interface anomalies. Presently, the greater harm is in staying and triggering more Interface anomalies or physical discomfort in me. I'll try to post on here if that changes. I think I can sense, Ed, that you already are applying this basic idea to me when you sense there's a problem (anomaly or otherwise), but I might as well have the protocol formally written out for both of you just to be on the safe side.(1)

If you're unclear with what's going on in a given situation, Jack, but at least sense confusion or a disconnect between you and I, this is probably when it's a good idea to enact the following safety protocol:

"Seraphime, I sense there's something problematic that may be occurring. I can't quite tell what it is, but in the event that me remaining here may exacerbate the symptoms, let me calmly, slowly and quietly step off now for your safety. If I'm making the wrong decision, I apologize, I mean no harm - I will try to get a corrected understanding as soon as I can and we can reconvene later when it seems less tense and confusing. I will happily show you then it's not my intent to abandon you or forsake you in your time of need."

Feel free to play around with the wording, it does not have to be said verbatim. As long as you're communicating the basic points, you're welcome to summarize it or truncate it or whatever. :)

(1) OMG, just so you both know, I hate this particular blog website's format. There's no real way to organize the posts by category (Interface Safety Protocols, Personal Messages, Health,  Photos of Friends, Issues Regarding Friends, Music Playlists, etc.). Instead this ends up being one just long stream of posts on every subject under the sun, making it hard for you two to go back and find stuff. At some point, I want to switch to another blog website that allows me better organization for all our sakes, but it'll take a bit. When I do switch, I'll transfer some of this data to it (the real important stuff), but may just leave this blog online also for you to sift through "old files" for miscellany and then just better organize on the new site going forward. I hate leaving you guys to have to sift through a needle in a haystack to find the important stuff, at the very least. :) ♡♡♡

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Jackie, if there's any doubt or confusion in your mind for any reason, let me be perfectly clear: I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!

I thought I was literally going to SNAP IN HALF when I did not see you cancel some of those tour dates because it meant I was going to have to go SEVERAL AGONIZING MONTHS WITHOUT YOU AND I DID NOT THINK MY SOUL WOULD SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*And why I came to conclude (by the beginning of July) that I would have to wait until your tour ended before I could see you again is because of how much I was starting get hurt by the Interface when we tried to connect. I had been saying over and over again telepathically that if you do keep with the current grueling tour date schedule, I won't be able to interact with you very much at all because the Interface is harming me too much. 1) In part because with the stress and unhappiness you have from such an intense work schedule, you end up carrying it into the Underground when interacting with me and it triggers Interface anomalies which harm me. Plus, all the other things I listed in the previous posts over the last few days. 2) As per scheduling, I don't know when you're available and I will NOT keep thinking you were with me only to look online and see you were giving an interview or on stage at the same time or even close to it. It LITERALLY makes me feel psychotic and is bad for my mental health.

If you did not loosen your tour date schedule, I knew I was getting too harmed. To keep trying to connect in the Underground while you were on tour - it was too hard, too complex, too emotion and stress-ladden to be safe. This meant I was going to HAVE TO wait several months until you were done, AND I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE WITHOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I tried telling you this several times. And then, I never saw you cancel any dates and I checked and checked and checked.

Now, Jackie, the truth is we are STILL in this situation. I am just hoping that if we can just get on the same page and at least establish our good will to each other and that we DO really love each other, that somehow a way forward will reveal itself. One that does not require me getting harmed or exposing myself to excessive risk in this damned Interface when it's acting up. Otherwise, I painfully, woefully and defeatedly will have to see you only a little bit until your tour ends and the album hoopla dies down.

Clarity helps improve hearing LITERALLY

Believe it or not, clearing up misunderstandings, like you and I are doing today (if what I am saying is in fact answering some questions for you and clearing things up) CAN make a BIG noticeable improvement in how well one can hear. I've experienced this positive phenomena many times, myself.

The other thing that could be contributing to a harder time hearing accurately is that you were very new when you hit the ground running and were trying to channel complexities while concurrently starting a world tour. The timing wasn't good considering your newness. This can be aided by the passage of time, continued practice and any type of clarity break through. Plus, Interface improvements, energy clearing and de-stressing. These all can help improve hearing accuracy.

What may be happening here since July

Jack, I hope this help clears some things up. I, of course, cannot know for sure through reciprocal tangible communication from you, but perhaps I'll infer new greater clarity on your part by your improved actions. If you really are a good person and do really care for me deeply and don't wish to hurt me, then, I think what may be happening is that many times you are not telepathically hearing me accurately when it's critical. For instance, when I have been saying, "I'm getting really physically (as in bodily) hurt for some reason(1) sometimes when we're attempting to come together in these psychic forums. I mean when we try to talk or hug or share space or cuddle sometimes (though not every time, thank God)." When you catch me saying things like, "Don't come near me! You're really hurting me. You need to stop!" I am referring to how sometimes I am experiencing great harm via Interface anomalies when you and I are trying to connect. I will yell those things out at you very accusatorily sometimes because, for the life of me, I couldn't figure out why you were still coming toward me or trying to call out to me anyway, despite me desperately trying to plead with you to not trigger the harmful Interface anomalies. :( Overtime I began to wonder if you were doing it on purpose or if you were doing it because you were callous or irresponsible and I began to fear you some. I also came to bitterly resent how much you were subjecting me to risky conditions or outright harmful conditions and experiences. This started regularly at the beginning of July.

And yet you had showed me so much tender concern and caring in the time leading up till then and you seemed like you never would want to hurt me , I couldn't make out what was happening. What has helped us is that I know how treacherous and deceptive the Interface can be. However, the physical pain of the anomalies, coupled with the psychological pain of seeing you reneg on your pledge to knock off tour dates so we could spend more time together, u unfortunately started to add up and I began to doubt your good character and love for me and build up resentment instead.

*(1) The reasons the harmful anomalies are occurring in the Interface, the ones that hurt me, likely have a decent amount to do with the emotional pain connected to the confusion between us regarding several subjects, your tension and stress regarding your professional work and my tension and stress regarding my crappy life/health/home environment. Stress and intense emotions and confusion can very much trigger harmful Interface anomalies. The reason for harmful anomalies which may affect me, you and others also have to do with system-wide failures, natural and man-made cataclysms which traumatize and stress people who, in turn, bring it into the Underground, EMF frequencies (possibly), negative currents of energy and thoughts that can attach themselves to us.

P.S. I am not intentionally underlining any words in this posts. It's a glitch on my phone.

YES, if you can lessen any amount of your tour schedule, Jack, I would love it

Jack, for clarity, and if possible, any little or big amount of time you want to and can shave off your tour and/or album/band/publicity commitments IS something I want. THERE IS NOTHING I WANT MORE, IN FACT. My only concern is getting my hopes up again and then getting them horribly dashed again. See the third paragraph below for details.

Now, in terms of how I would know if you achieved schedule ameliorations or cutting back - I may only have access to view your tour schedule on Bandsintown or the Raconteurs' website. Ancillary commitments, like interviews or appearances, I wouldn't likely have any way of knowing in concrete terms whether you had something scheduled or canceled it, but your tour dates I do have a calendar of and could, therefore, see if you ended up canceling any dates and made yourself more personally available to me and us.

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On a separate but related note, what I keep hearing you say psychically is that you had never intended to try to make any big changes to your tour/album schedule and had tried to tell me, but I didn't hear it correctly. This is always devastating to me to hear because I had thought you had been saying this summer you were ready to crack under the weight of this long-term tour commitment and really wanted out and were going to try to see if you could make a large-scale commitment change, a lessening of dates, in fact. I thought you requested making the other members of the band Awake and Alive and Conscious so that they might be on board and you got my hopes up and everything. It was devastating to see you not cancel anything, but instead you guys have just kept adding date after date after date to that tour. It's been so cruel to me and heartbreaking to watch you go further away, not closer. You talked so romantically and seemingly like you wanted us to be together and you seemed like you wanted to see if you could make changes to do so, but then you never followed through, you, in fact, went in the opposite direction and now all I often telepathically hear is you telling me you had never said you'd try to take tour dates off and that I basically should've been more realistic and realized that it would have been unlikely for you to do that. I keep hearing you tell me you tried to warn me not to get my hopes up. It's why I've been beside myself with disappointment, confusion, grief, sorrow and a great sense of betrayal over you.

My heart checkup was good!

My check up was really good with no abnormal heartbeats. In fact, that's been a first! :)

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I did, however, speak with the cardiac nurse who did confirm that I should still keep a serious eye on my stress levels though and take the mitigating of stress factors in my life seriously.

She also mentioned how electrolytes are a key component in heart arrhythmias (which matches my own research, too) and recommended a magnesium supplement. What I didn't know is that women my age (perimenopausal) tend to start losing magnesium and so, I was grateful she kind of gave me a heads up so I can get on it. Interestingly, though not surprisingly, my actual cardiologist-electrophysiologist didn't think electrolytes (magnesium) were the biggest factors in warding off a return of Atrial Flutter or another arrhythmia. He did not emphasize a big concern for stress. While he continued to emphasize how the arrhythmias tend to be genetic, with little in the way of anything the patient can do preventatively (as opposed to a heart attack, which is heavily affected by diet, exercise, stress), he did not say I should just ignore stress either. He is not the first cardiologist-electrophysiologist I've seen to feel arrhythmias' causality lies more with genetics than anything else. However, I tend to favor a common sense approach which airs on the side of caution. I will likely want to be very mindful of stress and will probably look into a magnesium supplement anyway. There a good deal of data out there linking magnesium to arrhythmias, so as long as it's safe to use then, I'd rather just cover my bases and take the darn mineral already! :) There's also a good deal of data linking stress to EVERYTHING, so I probably can't lose being mindful of it. I'll get into the political and for-profit aspects of all this later. I feel they are also critical components to the whole scenario.

For now though, the report was good and the results were in my favor. Phew!

Two blog posts tonight below this one

I have added two blog posts tonight: “Cig and Rannie talking about things publicly” and “My cardiologist check-up tomorrow morning.”  The first one is a further look at the public behavior of Cig and Rannie’s and how it relates to you two and our larger group. The second one is about my cardiologist check-up tomorrow.

Cig and Rannie talking about things publicly

Cig Neutron and Rannie Rodil are their full names if you two ever wanna Google them or look them up on Instagram or social media, so you can see what they're about and get a fuller sense of them. I say this because, if you two had mentioned your names when you were talking to them, I don't want you to worry that they are so out of bounds that they would try to harm you or do anything to you. If you go to Instagram, for example, you can find them under the spelling of their names just as I've spelled them above (Rannie's Insta is under Rannieaugogo) or you can use these links:

Cig ---》》》 https://instagram.com/cigneutron?igshid=1l6ttb3sx54ko

Rannie ---》》》 https://instagram.com/rannieaugogo?igshid=1id9otlb40x1r

Hopefully, you'll get a sense of the parameters of their character for your fuller peace of mind because while they have some problems and are stubborn, it truly is not as though they're psychopaths or anything. My extreme harsh tone the other night is in part because I'm kind of falling apart with the stress of everything sometimes. They deserved a harsh tone for telling me off and being disrespectful to my position but did not perhaps deserve me losing my freaking marbles on them in our psychic forums. I also trust that you both also wouldn't misuse this personal data of theirs I'm giving you. ♡♡♡

Now, I hope to directly address the difficulty we Elders have had with Cig and Rannie being too public: They do keep mentioning their "amazing spiritual awakening" online and they do have a fair amount of followers (on Instagram, Cig is at 70,000 and Rannie, 30,000 respectively). When talking about their new "spiritual awakening," it sometimes (too many times, IMO) involves references to "a huge consciousness awakening of much of the planet" and about a month ago, Cig tried to hold a "consciousness raising party" in which he encouraged everyone to try tap into the "mass consciousness of the earth" to try to make the world a better place. So, although a lot of the New Age movement uses language like that, and for years people in the New Age movement have been talking about how "an Age of Consciousness Awakening is coming" or "is upon us" because of Cig and Rannie's relatively close proximity to me and because of their tendency to be irresponsible, it takes on a more serious timbre.

Although we have been having a hard time with them on this subject (getting them to listen and understand why it makes sense not to be so public), it would be unlikely they would ever think to mention you two. 1) They've been very confused about a lot of what they hear and wouldn't likely know how to quantify or verbalize anything about you two without sounding off their rockers. When I talk to them about you two in their "down below" state, they keep reflecting that they don't even know how to describe anything that configures a lucid and logical understanding of you two. The brain does not compute and they confusedly stumble with their words and conceptual understanding. 2) Up top and in-person, they keep maintaining a strong belief in "trickster spirits" who might deceptively present themselves as one entity but secretly be another (eye roll), so they likely would believe it if we told them that is what has occurred when they "think" they've met you 3) Their whole public branding is one of such zaniness and wackiness that easily most people would just think they're speaking in hyperbolic terms, the way they do with everything else, and probably either would not pay too much attention to what they said or else would not make a literal interpretation of what they said, were they to ever mention you. 4) Our helpers and guides have offered to help confuse the narrative or rhetoric for them since a non-public approach is important. 5) If they did ever mention how they think they telepathically know you, we Elders, the Otherside and the Underground would respond in a way that endeavored to make sure they came to realize this was an unacceptable thing to do. There would be consequences, just as they are now beginning to realize there are consequences for talking publicly about trying to tap into "mass consciousness" for the sake of "improving the planet" or for seriously disrespecting an Elder who was supposed to be their friend (me).

I hope both of you, Ed and Jack, with the access to important people you both have (specifically, some of the wrong type of important people) are both actively committed to the same level of anonymity and non-disclosure of my identity or the Underground's identity in the way we are hoping to do for you and your sake.

Finally, if you two ever want to help support me again if Cig and Rannie are ever giving me crapola again, you might just from now on introduce yourselves as my friends or partners in a general, anonymous way, and I'd continue to remind them that I am polyamorous and have multiple partners, not just one or two and maybe the whole thing will just seem kind of confusing and hard to keep track of ("Seraphime's multiple lovers - who can keep track?") That way it'll eventually just register as various partners or boyfriends that aren't happy if we get untoward to Seraphime.

My cardiologist check-up tomorrow morning

I have my semi-annual cardiologist/electrophysiologist check-up tomorrow morning, and, to be honest, I am very worried about what they may tell me because I've been under a lot of strain. More specifically, I am worried about seeing a return of the non-life threatening heart condition of the two, the one called Atrial Flutter. Thank goodness, I am not as worried about a return of the more serious condition (fingers crossed), but even if the Atrial Flutter were to return, it would hamper my physical quality of life and make it so that I would have to start a very exhausting medical treatment protocol again.

Please do support me here to tonight, Ed, my love, with no-talking and a calm stepping back away from my person if there is any Interface anomalies or too much talking that gets pushed through the Interface anyway, despite your loving efforts, and we'll just leave it at that for the night, if need be.

Unfortunately, Jack, it is probably best that we do not hang out tonight or tomorrow morning since we still have a lot of Interface problems while they're working to improve it.

Because of Cig and Rannie (Rannie kept trying to consciously telepathically talk to me in the middle of the night last night and we had to kind of deal with her hard-headedness again. If I’m not mistaken, Eddie, your off-site subconscious self offered to help out. I had to walk away after a while, myself), I have been experiencing Interface-sensitivity tonight where the energy is quite reactive and kind of stings.

I am nervous about tomorrow and I hope everything will be okay. That I have been worried about the Atrial Flutter condition returning over these last few summer months is a signal that the Underground activities, which tragically include Interface problems related to you both regarding stress and schedule management and everyone else (i.e. challenges with Cig and Rannie, other friends, too, sometimes like Shelby, Joe, the whole Underground, etc.) + the impact the 7.1 earthquake had on the Interface + the antagonism of the "ne'er-do-wells" in my building + various other health problems - all of it spells out that I have some serious stressors that may very well threaten my health and that we may need to be proceeding from this point forward with a new, more serious acceptance of what is too much for me physically and psychologically. I love you both and I hope you will both work with me to respect my needs. I hope we can continue to work out new plans and approaches, but the definitive help will be that you do not continue to keep me relegated to these psychic forums for the whole of our relationship and that you actually do bring me into your actual lives.

You are both welcome to talk to each other using the five-senses about any of this health-related stuff I’m mentioning or even the doctor’s visit tomorrow, if you want to at any point, because it is important that we are on the same page with any bad experiences (like those listed above) that start to pose threats to my health.

Wish me luck tomorrow.

Darling lover and co-protector, Jack

Dearest Jack, because our guides/angels/helpers are still working to improve the Interface between you and I, sweetheart, I tragically should air on the side of caution and probably try to keep our shared time together here tonight on the short end. I hate to have to do this, because I can hardly tear myself from you as it is, but the Interface has been particularly brutal to you and I lately when we try to connect and I'm afraid it might hurt me as I'm recovering from that grueling experience this morning.

I hope this is okay. I love you so much and it meant SO much to me that you came to my aid and protection this morning in a way I've never seen before. I have tears in my eyes thinking of how gallant and loving you and Eddie both were. And I know you had gone back a second time, Jack, and made sure Cig really understood you were serious about him not disrespecting me. You are my hero! And Eddie is my hero! Thank you both!

I'm letting Eddie know to check out this post too, so maybe he can help us get synchronized trying to watch out for bad false channels or anomolies and then, keeping our visit on the shorter end.

Eddie and I have been already hanging a bit tonight and are just being very quiet but very cuddly. I'd love it if you could do that too with us. ♡♡♡