Just to confirm for clarity's sake:
OK, so, the Otherside and I are telling you both, Eddie and Jack, that you WILL perhaps need to take some amount of calculated risk in bending some of the rules of your lawyer contracts or whatever other prohibitive legal, professional or personal situations you have so as to regular-world get me into your lives. If legal restrictions are what's prohibiting you, then you need to see where you can bend some amount of rules (hopefully without too much blowback for yourselves ♡) so I am not left to try to have a full adult relationship with you both via this Interface. The Interface is too temperamental and harmful to me for me to last a lot longer trying to telepathically date in a complex way in it. All of our respective lives are too intense and complicated for us to navigate safely in this Interface. It's costing me a lot and too unfair to me otherwise. I would imagine that it costs both of you, too, actually. It's uncomfortable for me to say this, but I have to say it. We, the Otherside and I, have to say it.
Lastly, Eddie, if in the past you were worried that the very process of trying to contact me itself was so hurtful as to be prohibitive - in other words, if you had noticed that in the beginning of our relationship when you tried calling me or following me on Instagram, it seemed like it caused me a lot of emotional pain to the extent that you've now been afraid to try contacting me again - please know by this point, NOT getting in contact with me is now the greater pain. The pain of going through the process of attempting to connect is the lesser emotional pain compared with not being in physical regular-world contact with you at all. This is because of how harmful the Interface has become. This principle also applies to you, dear Jack.
It might be helpful to know that the reason it was so emotionally painful at first when we tried making contact, Eddie (when you tried following me on Instagram or trying phoning me on a flip top/burner phone) is because going through the anticipation of waiting and getting my hopes up, only to see you not come through and contact me, is too roller coaster-like and jarring. It means too much to see this succeed to individually go through the failures each time. It's why I'm now saying, "Don't tell me about it beforehand. Just show up on my voicemail or in my email or at my front door, etc." That way I avoid the excruciating element of waiting and getting my hopes up. Meaning, if something unforeseen goes wrong and either of you don't immediately succeed in getting into contact with me, I'm none the wiser and I avoid being put through the ringer while waiting for you two to hit the mark. I can avoid hearing, "Honey, I'll follow you on Instagram right now..." only to wait several days and never see it happen. So, if we eliminate this element of it, the anxiety of seeing you two attempt to make contact but fail to deliver doesn't as deeply outweigh the pain of enduring the harm of the Interface. Even logically, the harm of the Interface becomes the worser of the two, thus, making it more feasible to have you both try to go ahead and attempt contacting me until either or both of you succeed. :)
Note: In the future, I may add addendums to this subject. Also, the underscores are not mine. It's my phone.
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