Jackie, if there's any doubt or confusion in your mind for any reason, let me be perfectly clear: I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK WITH OUT YOU! I'M COMPLETELY ENRAPTURED, BEWITCHED, OBSESSED WITH YOU!!!
I thought I was literally going to SNAP IN HALF when I did not see you cancel some of those tour dates because it meant I was going to have to go SEVERAL AGONIZING MONTHS WITHOUT YOU AND I DID NOT THINK MY SOUL WOULD SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*And why I came to conclude (by the beginning of July) that I would have to wait until your tour ended before I could see you again is because of how much I was starting get hurt by the Interface when we tried to connect. I had been saying over and over again telepathically that if you do keep with the current grueling tour date schedule, I won't be able to interact with you very much at all because the Interface is harming me too much. 1) In part because with the stress and unhappiness you have from such an intense work schedule, you end up carrying it into the Underground when interacting with me and it triggers Interface anomalies which harm me. Plus, all the other things I listed in the previous posts over the last few days. 2) As per scheduling, I don't know when you're available and I will NOT keep thinking you were with me only to look online and see you were giving an interview or on stage at the same time or even close to it. It LITERALLY makes me feel psychotic and is bad for my mental health.
If you did not loosen your tour date schedule, I knew I was getting too harmed. To keep trying to connect in the Underground while you were on tour - it was too hard, too complex, too emotion and stress-ladden to be safe. This meant I was going to HAVE TO wait several months until you were done, AND I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE WITHOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I tried telling you this several times. And then, I never saw you cancel any dates and I checked and checked and checked.
Now, Jackie, the truth is we are STILL in this situation. I am just hoping that if we can just get on the same page and at least establish our good will to each other and that we DO really love each other, that somehow a way forward will reveal itself. One that does not require me getting harmed or exposing myself to excessive risk in this damned Interface when it's acting up. Otherwise, I painfully, woefully and defeatedly will have to see you only a little bit until your tour ends and the album hoopla dies down.
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