Suicide

Yes, I am someone who gets to feeling suicidal and has regular suicidal ideation bc my overall life circumstances seem so hopeless and as the future wans on and the 2020 election encroaches, they look ever more hopeless still. My real-world, regular world circumstances are very, very bad and grueling. My health is not always great. My economic prospects are poor and without opportunity. I am often talking to my psychiatrist and therapist about this suicidal component and they consider me an at-risk-patient that they have to regularly keep on eye on.

Please do share this verbatim with Paul.

Photos/videos

I have a few photos of the El Salvadorian restaurant I'm at right now (5pm; 12/27/19; Happy Hour) and a few videos/photos of the little chapel we visited for Xmas Eve mass. These are on the Soulkin Instagram.

I still have more Xmas lights photos to upload of the houses in my friend's neighborhood, s'more Xmas trees from DTLA and, of course, I still owe you guys the Day of the Dead videos....

Xmas Dinner

Sorry I'm so abrupt, sweetheart. I really am sorry I end up being this way. It's not how I am in the regular world of socializing. I get overstimulated sometimes here in these psychic worlds and I have to stop suddenly when that happens. Sadly, it occurs even on really fun things like hopping around in a life-size Gingebread House.

Instead, I was thinking of starting dinner now. If you want, you can join me. I should be about 20 - 30 mins until I have everything done, bc I cooked the tofurkey last night.

I had hoped to bring you in earlier for the presents being unwrapped and hanging some decorations on the tree, but the dogs were kind of manic bc I had toys for them for Xmas and the Interface energy was weird and heavy. 

I love you so much though and hope to share as much Xmas with you as best we can. I'm sorry it's stop-and-start and hodgepodge. I wish I could do better but the environment of my friend's house is kind of more stressful than I anticipated (and I already anticipated some stress!) and the Interface makes navigation challenging, of course. Anyway, you're welcome to join me for some holiday nom noms in the regular world way. I should be done in approx a half hour. I'll check to see if you can join me then or any point along the way. :) ♡♡♡♡ 

I'm just happy you're spending Xmas with me and Jeremy, BarnabyCat and Wolfgang, et al, in any capacity!!

Xmas Eve and Xmas Day ♡♡♡

I'm going to try to make the Xmas Eve mass tonight at 7:30pm at the little Catholic chapel down the street, founded by Carmelite nuns. I think it's called, St. Joseph's. It's a cute little chapel and the priests there are very, very quiet. In case the turn out is especially impacted bc of the holidays, I'm going to try to get there maybe around 6:45pm or so. Unf they don't offer midnight mass. Oh well. :( This'll be quaint and sacral though....

If you'd like to psychically come with me, I'd really like it. I'm not sure if I can take pictures once inside before the service starts, but I'll scope the situation out.

I don't regularly go to mass anymore, but generally I do for Xmas and sometimes Easter.

Here at the house today, at some point, I'll need to do some light cleaning, let the dogs out again and hop in the shower, just so you get a sense of my scheduling needs before 6:30/6:45pm.

I bought another vegan tofurkey, veggie mashed potatoes, stuffing and vegan pie that I'll be eating tomorrow in celebration. I might also add some decorations I bought to the Xmas tree tomorrow. If you're free, I'd love to spend the holiday with you, in around whatever stuff I still have to do with the dogs (feeding, potty, play time, tending to their anxieties to some extent - I suspect these things won't cease owing to a human holiday). :-P

I'd love it if you psychically eat with me Xmas lunch/dinner tomorrow, if you had anything special you were gonna make for tomorrow.

I might go ahead and cook the tofurkey tonight, and make the sides tomorrow bc Lamby can start to go crazy with barking if he smells strong smelling human food for too long. The holidays, food, water, existence on the planet Earth all incite him, too. [Sequence eye roll].

Lamby and Sammie pix

I have a few pictures of the dogs on the Soulkin Instagram.

I am a drummer

Since high school I've played the drums. It's my favorite instrument. I love 'em! I can play drum sets (at least I used to be able to - I'd be very rusty playing a drum set now,  tbh, but I'd still enjoy getting back into it) but my preference are hand drums. Indian Doumbeks, to be exact, but I like various African hand drums, too, like the Djembe. In high school I owned a five-piece Ludwig set but my parents made me give it away bc the neighbors were complaining. Assholes. :-P

I prefer Middle East and African beats. Also Jazz. Traditional Indian rhythms blow my mind.

I used to have a nice little collection of hand drums from around the world there for awhile, but, sadly, I had to sell them all about 10 years ago. I still miss them. All I have now is a bucket drum and some well-worn drum sticks. I can't really practice playing at my apartment, but whenever I see a drum circle with good vibes, I love to bring the bucket/sticks and pound on it. The more complex the rhythms, the better!

I can generally pick up any beat within 15 minutes to a half hour. Any beat. Except Indian tablas. Traditional tabla composition tends to go over my head, it's so unexpected and counter-intuitive to me. So, while I can pick up drum beats in a short amount of time, it doesn't mean I'll have mastered how to render it on the instrument acceptably. That would take practice to master demonstrating the newly learned beat in the right way. I may or may not have played the drum before, too. And I never get to practice anymore anyway. But once I get warmed up...I tend to find the most skilled drummer in the circle and mimick what he plays (surprising everyone there, bc usually drum circles are sausage fests).

I wouldn't say I'm the most creative drummer. My mind goes blank when asked to provide a new, interesting beat, but I would say I'm a quick study and can handle intricate rhythm structures :)

I am largely self-taught, having only briefly taken drumming in college. Whereas with the accordian, I trained for three years (still never learned to read sheet music somehow though) 

:-P

Accordian Ragtime when I was a kid

I did used to play the accordian (of all instruments) competitively when I was young. I competed internationally and always won first place or grand prize. Always. I never learned to read music,  I sort of put things together using my own hodgepodge method of understanding. And I played a lot of ragtime. Scott Joplin, yay.

I was a kid when did this, however, and unf I didn't keep up wirh it.

The Rain & Lamby and Sammie

I've been experiencing a lot of anxiety and panic attacks on this job. The dogs are A LOT of work (more than I was expecting), though sweet-hearted. And I'm good with animals! Ah well.

One of the things I'm stressed abt upcoming is that it's slated to rain all this week, incl on Xmas, and Lamby (learned the correct spelling of his name; pronounced "Lemmy" though) is kind of bonkers when encountering other dogs. And he's already a pill! ;-p

While I've achieved some miracles with them so far, there are many times I don't feel well (physically, mentally) and have an increase of lot of anxiety symptoms since here. :(

Star Wars!

I'm watching ABC, a Jimmy Kimmel Star Wars special tonight. If youd like to join me, youre welcome to. :)

Woops! Forgot to include the link for the paranormal/EMF article

Here's the URL that belongs with the following paragraph from the previous post. Sorry about that.

"Check out this artcle on Infrared sound. It is AMAZE.  Note: just bc the article seemingly contradicts what the Ghost Hunter guy said doesn't mean both can't be true, bc the only fact ultimately applicable is that nothing has been discerned with certainty yet.:

https://science.howstuffworks.com/science-vs-myth/extrasensory-perceptions/infrasound-paranormal-activity.htm

More on EMF

So, I'm watching the show Ghost Hunter in the background right now and one of the investigators said something entirely relevant to what I've been discussing with you lately. I don't know if this is true, but I had to write it down while I still remembered it. He said, "In terms of EMF waves, anything above 20 hz and 90 decibels and people will observe paranormal experiences." 

20 hz (ELF radio waves) is the bottom end of human hearing, so that would be a commonly heard frequency, which would mean we could be encountering paranormal INDUCING frequencies (causing telepathy?) OR INTERFERING frequencies (interfering with telepathy?) all the time. What I don't know is if he observed the 20 hz emission needs to be accompanied with a 90 decibel characteristic for paranormal phenomena to occur bc, if so, 90 decibels is pretty loud (industrial noise levels), and, thus, not as easily found inside a home (well, unless you're a professional musician, of course). ;-p

When I do ITC work with my friends on the Otherside using the PSb7 device, the spirits utilize medium to high frequency radio waves on the FM dial to communicate with me. They can bring through audible-to-the-naked-ear words and music.

Storm clouds and lightning also create EMF fields, so, this is good to keep in mind in terms of further possible interference from natural phenomena, but again, we don't know for sure, because we have no established bar for when EMF interference from man-made (AC) or natural (DC) sources begin distorting the frequencies WE use to telepathically communicate with each other. We haven't even established which frequencies WE utilize to telepathically communicate with each other. We haven't even established that we use EMF frequencies to  communicate with each other at all. If we do use 'em, are they ELF frequencies (power lines, appliances, wiring or higher, like HF or even EHF (radio, TV, cellphones, and beyond)?

*[1] At least those were the metrics I THINK the Ghost Hunter guy said. He said it quickly and I tried to rewind it several times but for the life of me haven't been able to relocate it yet in the video bc my friend's remote is slow responding.

Check out this artcle on Infrared sound. It is AMAZE.  Note: just bc the article seemingly contradicts what the Ghost Hunter guy said doesn't mean both can't be true, bc the only fact ultimately applicable is that nothing has been discerned with certainty yet. 

https://science.howstuffworks.com/science-vs-myth/extrasensory-perceptions/infrasound-paranormal-activity.htm

The above writing contains original intellectual content © Copyright 2019, Seraphime Angelis.

Note: There's a vastly unrelated post below this one.

You cuming

BTW, we are saying that nearly every time you cum, I can feel it to the point of it giving me a type of genuine orgasm, an ecstacy. Nearly every. Single. Time. So, you and Eddie, cum all you want! I love it. I can't get enough of it. So, cum right away and often. I know after the first big spill, you're still able to release some kind of energy, at least, bc I can still feel the sexual-spill-release energy flourish sporadically (inclusive of tension and peak, then, release) and I always hear you and Eddie tell me, "I'm releasing a couple drops remaining here and there." If it works for you and feels good, then, great - keep cuming right away and throughout - bc it def works for me and it feels great. It's why I can't wait until you cum as soon as possible (and often) bc I get to also! :) ♡

Just wanted to put this in writing for you both. 

At last, men and women can be more sexually congruous. That is one major plus about these psychic forums/The Underground.

Meeting Sammie

Would you like to have a brief meet and greet of Sammie? She's the dog who was not barking just now, who has the injured paw. We can keep it brief so she can have a chance to settle back down and go to sleep.

Lemmy will have to wait until later to meet you bc he's trying to focus on calming down and not barking right now. :) ♡

Lemmy is barking for a long time right now

My friend has complained of the second dog, Lemmy, for a long time. He has something behaviorally/emotionally that he's struggling with. He heard something outside just now and cannot settle down and stop barking. He's been barking for the last 15 minutes straight and it's often like this, poor thing. When I talk to him, I hear him dejectedly tell me that he feels a lot like I do. He has upsets psychology that he can't calm down from and hos home environment doesn't help. Princess Kitty Cat psychically "came over" and said she has help from the animals at the Rosslyn bc we have many dogs at the Rosslyn that are like this, too. Princess Kitty and the Rosslyn animals have been talking to Lemmy and he quieted a little bit but he's still very worked up, pacing and barking off and on. There's no one outside anymore. :( Intensity in so many beings lives.

Early to bed tonight

Since tomorrow morning I'll be getting up at 7:30am to help see my friend off (she's from Europe and goes home to visit sometimes), I'll be going to sleep earlier than usual tonight, but after I wash my face, brush my teeth, we can cozy up for a bit while I was some cable TV!! :)

A Real Home for the Holidays!!!!!!!!!!! ♡

OK, I have some good news or at least partially good news. I am dog sitting at my friend's house over the Christmas holiday! I'll be out here in an LA suburb for a couple of weeks, away from the shitty, cruel, invasive neighbors of the Rosslyn! She has a Xmas tree and decorations!!

My friend's HOUSE is a nice two bedroom with a big front and back yard in a quaint, safe and quiet residential neighborhood, no bugs and a soft bed. :) There are gorgeous, elaborate Xmas lights lining the entire Leave it To Beaver neighborhood!! :) A retired school teacher lives next door. In her own house. Many, many yards away.

The only caveat is that the two dogs I'll be looking after are kind of high maintenance, with the one, Sammie, having an injured foot that needs to have regular medication administered and a trip to the vet this next week (I don't have a car, so Uber, please don't fail me! I have notoriously bad Uber luck, so, hopefully it'll work for me and they'll let me transport a dog in a carrier). The other dog, Lemmy, is very excitable and barks a lot and loudly at little provocation. Lemmy was telling me, he is very sensitive to human feelings and picks up very easily if we're feeling stressed or upset or something and that he then internalizes some of those feelings. I told him I do have a lot of worry and sorrow/stress, but that getting away from the ghetto of DTLA will help. We agreed to try to work with each other and hopefully that I can consciously communicate with them will help. They have a specific schedule that my friend wants me to stick to, so I'll be needing to get to bed strictly by 5-6am, so I can be up by 10am to feed them and let them out. I hope to see if I can fall back asleep afterwards or at some point take a nap during the day in between the times I need to walk them. The two dogs told me they are so stressed out[1] that they cannot always control their excitable behavior and excessive barking. I said, "I know what that's like, I'm in a similar boat," and we pledged to try to understand and work with each other as best we can.

So, the dog's have a lot of excitability and rules and scheduling needs (vet/meds stuff, regularly let out in the yard to go potty so they don't poo or pee inside + walk and play time) BUT I'm out of the ghetto in a clean house in a neighborhood that's safe to walk around in. There are many amenities in the house, like cable TV and a full kitchen, several rooms and a living room with a fireplace and Xmas tree! (except, again, no microwave bc my friend also doesn't believe they're healthy for one's food). So... with the expansive kitchen in mind I bought another vegan turkey for Christmas, some vegan gravy, mashed potatoes (vegetarian) and stuffing (got these at various stores, not Trader Joe's unf). AND I WON'T MIND COOKING AS MUCH!! Lemmy may bark a lot if he smells me cooking but maybe I can stave him off with dog treats. :))) If I can get an Uber to work properly, there's a health food store not too far from here. We'll see if I can pick up anything else.

So, because I won't be downtown (which is far from where I'm staying) and I don't have a car, alas, I will not be going to midnight mass on xmas eve at the Cathedral in DTLA. Instead, I may service a visit to the local Catholic chapel down the street from here on Christmas eve or day, depending on when they offer their services.

[1] Unf there's a lot of regular tension and arguing between my friend and her son, who I suspect has undiagnosed ADHD. He's a bit of a pill and kind of pushes her buttons, stresses her out a lot and the dogs pick up on it and react. Her son is 8 y/o. There's also tensions bwteen my friend and other loved ones in her life. Some of these people don't always treat her well. I've known it for a long time as I've known her for well over a decade and haven't always known what to do or how best to support her. :(

Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate

Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate for $5 @ Trader Joe's. Soooooo yummy!

What I Was Saying Just Now....Why I Am Upset

I'm just going to type this part bc it becomes disconcerting if I don't know if you can even hear me accurately and it takes so much effort to push the words through in the first place. I end up feeling that I exerted myself profoundly and it may be all for naught (if I can't tell if you're even hearing me clearly).

OK, so I was talking about how I was watching a documentary last night on Los Angeles homeless and poverty and it was harrowing and triggering. I was telling you just now that I have no reliable support structure, even among family and friends (outside of the Rosslyn).[1] And then I was saying one of the things that is deeply upsetting is how my therapist and psychiatrist respond. It's been this way at that clinic since 2016. The mental health clinic I attend is located in the heart of Skid Row, and I think the clinicians there are not trained specifically for and do not even have an instinct for handling catastrophe on the level of humanitarian disaster-level homelessness, and its subsequent mental health expressions. Something like what Trump and the Republicans are threatening to do (taking away our housing, medical insurance, food stamps and other stipends that allow poor people like me to survive) is something that NONE of these clinicians have seen in their lifetime. To obliterate the remaining social welfare programs the poor are barely clinging onto would create a level of upheaval in this class of people that has not been witnessed before in the last 80 to 100 years. These social workers, therapists, psychiatrists are not prepared for being the ones that are left to treat us and help us manage this level of catastrophe in our lives. They are paradoxically both in denial and de-sensitized to how adversely the human psyche of the victims will be affected. They offer strange responses in place of compassion and relatability. Both my therapist and psychiatrist sometimes make me feel even worse and more dehumanized after talking to them (I saw them both yesterday). And it's a systemic response. In other words, I've seen many therapists and psychiatrists at that clinic and whenever I try to talk to them about the prospect of losing everything, I often get these weird, almost patently academic, responses from them, as though I was an example in a textbook; a theoretical model, not a human going down in flames in front of them. The human connectivity element is stifled, denied, weirdly ignored. It's deeply upsetting.

I also was telling you how hurt I am that I can't get any of the Awake, Alive and Conscious people in contact me, in my life. Even those right here in the Rosslyn, I keep having trouble with. I finally made contact with Akula on social media (young African American who's a musician who lives right across the hall from me. You've met him several times in the psychic way and at the Pumpkin Patch, etc.) only to see him stall and never write me back after I begin chatting with him on Facebook about bad neighbors in the building. I can't figure out why he won't write me back. AND HIM AND I WERE FRIENDS WELL BEFORE THE UNDERGEOUND OR PSYCHIC ROSSLYN COMMUNITY! Every neighbor I've tried to get in touch with using the five senses has been like this. I'm so frustrated and then I start to panic sometimes. It's why I try to tell the Rosslyn folks to not listen to what comes through the Interface for guidance on how to start connecting and socializing with fellow Psychic Rosslyn members because it easily turns leople around with false and confusing content (again, Akula and I talked WAY more BEFORE the Psychic Rosslyn effort. It sent us BACKWARD!)

[1] Later, at some point, I'll have to write or tell you more about my family and friends outside the Rosslyn, and why I came to realize I have lrecious little in terms of a reliable network and support structure of loved ones. It was first revealed to me in 2014 with the advent of my heart event. I then learned how fair weather so many of my so-called allies and loved ones were. From then on, I cut a lot of ties and it's another reason you don't see me go out much (compared to how much I used to socialize). In fact, what was evidenced to me in 2014/2015 about my friends and family was probably one of the most hurtful things I've ever experienced in my adult life. Suffice it say, I don't have a lot of good, decent, reliable people in my life, which is why I went looking for those living folks in my Soul Group. 

Holiday photos, et al

Got some fun new photos on the Soulkin Instagram account. :)

You Still Should Contact Me Using Phone, Email, Snail Mail, In-Person or Other Modern Methods

OK, so even though I am describing speculative channeling/telepathic interference from electronic devices, I AM NOT SAYING THAT YOU SHOULD NOT GO AHEAD AND JUST PHONE ME ON A SMART PHONE OR FLIP TOP PHONE OR ANY OTHER TYPE OF PHONE THAT WILL SIMPLY ALLOW YOU TO DIAL MY NUMBER AND CALL ME. YOU SHOULD STILL DO SO SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. ON THE PHONE, YES, EVEN SMART PHONES, WE CAN COMPARATIVELY SAFELY TALK IN REAL-TIME OR YOU CAN LEAVE A MESSAGE ON MY VOICEMAIL WITH CALL BACK INFO SO I CAN RETURN YOUR CALL. 

THE SAME APPLIES FOR EMAIL OR ANY OTHER ELECTRONIC FORM OF COMMUNICATION AND CONTACT.

Because I have no form of concrete communication from you, I have no idea what type of confused ideas or beliefs (or, even legitimate obstacles) you and Eddie may still have which are causing you two to continue delaying from reaching out and getting a hold of me. This disables me from knowing what precisely to post on here that may be of clarifying help, if the issue is one of confusion or misapprehension on your parts. Who knows? Maybe you're both still confused, maybe you have some legitimate obstacles, probably an admixture of both. Please disregard ideas or beliefs that keep you from calling, writing or showing up in person in my life sooner rather than later.

Channeling: The respite of the forest and the desert

To bring home the point, when I have been in the forest or desert, away from the power lines and towers and equipment, I can get some of the clearest, mildest, smoothest psychic/telepathic reception imagineable. It's been that way for years for me. Many others report this also. I've tested this with spirits, the Divine and living animals.  I have not yet tested it with living humans, Underground or Awake, Alive and Conscious.

It's a bit different if I go to the beach. More on the theory as to why that may be later. :)

Experiment: Removing ourselves from electronic proximity to mitigate Interface harm

Note: I have not proofread this for typos, syntax errors, etc 

Taking the EMF idea further, and also theoretically speaking, we could play around with trying to minimize regular world exposure to electronic devices while telepathically connected to each other and/or doing channeling, in general. Of course, all of the electronic devices in our homes emit EMF frequencies of all kinds, some in very high amounts. It's well supported that exposure to high amounts of EMF frequencies, as output by our modern electronic devices, can produce hazardous biological health effects, but unf what is not well understood by traditional science is the effect EMF frequencies, as output by our electronic devices, might have on the PSYCHIC transference of thoughts and energy between beings.

However, that being said, in the paranormal investigative field, EMF field emissions, as produced by electronic devices, are a BIG deal and we consider it to be the PREMIERE variable affecting telepathic communications from spirits. So, before we do any investigating, we remove or avoid most or all of the electronic devices in an area, so the spirits can talk to us. Otherwise electronic devices will produce false positives in our instruments and masquerade as spirit communication and other affirmatives. Electronic devices can actually produce false content on my ITC instruments! (which are also electronic, ironically). Another common example is that a spirit's presence will typically produce an EMF spike on an electro-magnetic meter and an electronic device will also produce that same spike on the meter. So, while we are not spirits and don't know for sure what they're made of, the idea that psychic/telepathic communication content and energy could possibly involve EMF frequencies, no matter who's the source or recipient, could mean the spirit investigations have relevancy for our own telepathic operations as living beings. It's all very speculative and loosely organized at this point, but there's enough connected dots there to make it quite suggestive, too, IMO.

What I am saying we might experiment with, at some point, is to try doing our channeling with each other, the Rosslyn folks, animals, spirits, spirit helpers, etc. - in other words, anyone potentially involving EMF frequencies to commune with - in a part of the house with minimal or the absence of electronic devices to see if we, especially someone sensitive like me who's getting banged up a lot, experience less Interface anomalies and bad frequency behavior.

For that matter, Jack and Ed, what is the role of our electronic technologies, which inundate nearly every inch of our home and work spaces, our city and landcapes, even our physical persons, exuding EMF radiation, sometimes in high amounts - what is the effect of these emissions on The Underground, on these psychic forums, on the Rosslyn Psychic Community and our/its efforts to hear, send and receive accurately? If we are to postulate that to telepathically communicate and interact requires an EMF vehicle to deliver the content and we know factually that in this modern epoch there are more sources of EMF spillage than ever before in humanity's time on earth, then might we understand one of the reasons why the Underground/psychic forums/Interface is broken and behaving so badly?? 

The Interface and these psychic forums are behaving in a way they never have before in all of my recollection of my many past lives. That Interface has never malfunctioned this awfully before. I cannot get over what a wacked out crazy bitch it is, in fact!!! It acts totally CRAY in a way I've never known comparable to the rest of human history. What if all our damn EMF-based electronic equipment in this world is another one of the pieces in the puzzle as to why the Interface is broken??? And it would make sense the frequencies are FUCKEN WHACK among living humans because this equipment is everywhere around in our lives. It makes even more sense those of us Awake, Alive and Conscious are having an even harder time because we're sitting right here in our homes right next to our devices and equipment while we channel and connect to each other and we're fully present in our bodies while doing it (unlike someone like Underground Richard who uses an offsite, almost out-of-body model of his consciousness to commune). We (the Awake, Alive and Conscious) are, therefore, potentially more directly impacted by EMF fields and EMF fluctuations when we connect with each other. ...Although if spirits are affected and/or affect EMF fields, maybe Richard is and does, too. 

Consider, at some point, joining me in the experiment of communing with each other in an area of the house with minimal or the absence of electronic equipment and we (def I) can see if we (I) experience a lessening of Interface anomalies, whether short-lived or prolongued, I'd be happy with a mitigation of any of it! It'll be a bit tricky for me bc I have no space to run to away from my household appliances, devices, equipment, etc., bc my space is so small, but I might be able to move a couple things around to maybe minimize the influence. Even moving a few feet away from an electronic device can reduce EMF exposure to the body significantly!

P.S. I've been working on some of the details of these EMF/telepathy theories for a number of years now. Some of them are my own original thoughts and ideas pertaining ITC research, paranormal research and the Underground, Psychic Rosslyn Community, living person telepathic/psychic spaces. Please do kindly respect they are my intellectual property.

The above writing contains original intellectual content © Copyright 2019, Seraphime Angelis.

Evidence supporting the psychic-EMF connection

Here is an Abstract referencing a study that found a correlation between psychic healing work and the Electric and Magnetic Fields.

EMF= Electro-Magnetic Field. Technically, two separate fields.

http://journals.sfu.ca/jnonlocality/index.php/jnonlocality/article/view/50

The impact of the White Island Volcano's eruption on psychic forum frequencies

THIS IS FOR JACK AND EDDIE, BUT I DO HAVE SOME JACK-SPECIFIC REFERENCES HERE IN HOPES OF MAKING SOME JACK-SPECIFIC SAFETY CORRECTIONS

*You might want to bookmark this post, along with other important posts on this blog. Likely more on this topic in the future, too. You'll still have to c/p the URLs to your browser, unf. I need to move to another blog website. :(

It is also important to keep in mind tonight, Jack, that systemic problems and anomalies have been reported in the psychic forums today (Monday) and yesterday (Sunday). Both of you are welcome to ask Richard from Renaissance Faire to confirm this for you, if you'd like. As a reminder, he is in the Underground state and should be working with an "offsite" model of his consciousness, which is not as directly connected to his physical body (thereby theoretically not as tied in with his biological body's retention of stress and other strong emotional charges, which trigger bad Interface behavior. In other words, hopefully he's a bit safer to interact with for the moment long enough to get a confirmation of the system failure. Just go gingerly).

Among mediums, channels and paranormal investigators, it is theorized that these telepathic and psychic capacities that humans, animals and the dead enjoy utilize Electro-Magnetic Frequencies. In other words, to dialogue in these psychic forums, it is thought we're relying on EM frequencies to convey content, like a radio.

There was a deadly volcano on White Island, New Zealand yesterday.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/nation/2019/12/08/white-island-whakaari-eruption-new-zealand-jacinda-ardern/

Now, while the stress, grief and general troublesome impact of such an event would not likely effect us here in the regular world of the United States, in these psychic forums, including the Underground, the collective stress of the human psyche CAN be passed along to each other. Sometimes, even to humans living far away from the cataclysm. It varies, apparently. I tend to be sensitive, so sometimes I can feel the "psychologically-stressed" effect of humans and animals facing large-scale regular world disasters. I experience those stressed-out responses as "Interface anomalies" in these psychic forums, sometimes even if I'm geographically far away from the event.*[1] I am letting your guides/spirit helpers break down this aspect of Interface disturbances for you. What I am here to talk to you about tonight is how the EMF Fields themselves can be jostled in responses to particular natural disasters, and when that happens, you then, have not just one, but TWO components of concern for interacting in the psychic forums: The first one pertains to the human and animal stress factor, as mentioned above, when dealing with a natural or man-made disaster of ANY kind. The stress reflects a response to the hardship of the event itself, plus, in the case of natural disasters, the increasing implications of climate emergency. The second component pertains to how the EM frequencies themselves by which humans and animals theoretically communicate with are perturbed when affected by SPECIFIC types of natural disasters, like volcanos and earthquakes. That means the very vehicle transporting 

our comunications to each other gets upended, railroaded, turned on its side. :(

Sunday and Monday (U.S.) I have been harmed by a more profound level of stinging and heavy pressure (Interface anomalies) that I couldn't shake. These anomalies were in response to actions from others that should not have normally created that result (tragically, the others in this case were you and "Offsite Helper, Mr. Reeves"). When that happens for any length of time, rather than a singular short-lived incident, that usually reflects a system-wide Interface and psychic forum failure. In addition, I've been super stressed and exhausted personally after working this last week to get you greater clarity on the issue of getting into contact with me and getting in each others' lives. The system-wide failure and last week's effort were not a good combo for me in terms of bad experiences yesterday and today. :( Below I mention my speculations as to what was psychically happening last week on my end, too.

Below are a couple three articles supporting a correlative relationship between volcanic eruptions and EMF Fields. You can research and find the same for earthquakes and EMF Fields, too.

"Indeed, electromagnetic phenomena recorded at the ground surface of a volcanic system...provide a direct and quasi‐instantaneous insight into the...disturbances occurring in the heart of the volcanic structure prior and during a volcanic event."

https://agupubs.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1029/2002JB001835

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"Significant anomalous changes in the ultra low frequency range (≈0.01 Hz) were observed in both geoelectric and geomagnetic fields before the major volcano-seismic activity in the Izu Island region, Japan."

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC124234/

Note: There is even mention that EM fluctations started to occur awhile BEFORE the volcanic eruption. Could this have something to do with how the Interface kept overly telepathically connecting us this last week (Interface anomaly) when you were downloading data from your spirit helpers on how to understand my posts and getting into contact with me/putting me in your life? Because for the life of me, I couldn't disconnect from your internal processing thoughts last week (it's unf been happening this week so far, too - I mean, does last week's anomalies and this week's have the same causality - the volcano erupting in New Zealand?). I couldn't/can't quite easily shut out your internal thoughts and dialogues with your guides and I kept/keep getting all sorts of weird Interface experiences when what was happening last week was supposed to be a step forward in the right direction in terms of your greater understanding on how to get me in your life! ♡ I CAN normally shut you out better than this, but this last week I couldn't and it was very hard on my system overall and I couldn't figure out what was happening to make the experience SOO unmanageable. Let's be careful going forward for the next little while. Btw, my theory includes the likelihood that many different variables are involved with why last week had so many anomalies or bad experiences, but I am not writing off the new possibility that volcanic induced EMF fluctations were also a contributing factor.

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https://link.springer.com/referenceworkentry/10.1007%2F978-1-4020-4423-6_315

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This data is very important for both of you to understand and work with. But, especially for you, Jack, because over the summer, when you went back on tour in July, some of the components from that activity (although largely innately innocent from you ♡♡♡) happened to coincide with that big earthquake that occurred here in Southern California, the combination produced Interface anomalies that were VERY ABUSIVE for me. We're hoping you can now gain greater understanding about how some of this stuff can harmfully work together and be ping-ing each other, setting off chain reactions sometimes. I am hoping with this data you can now start responding more effectively and safely when you observe or learn of me (or anyone else) complaining of PROLONGED or PROFOUND Interface harm*[2], especially if combined with any sort of large-scale regular world harmful event and doubly especially if it's a natural disaster which disturbs the EMF Fields.

Since the broken Interface kept shoving through to me your processing of the wide spread systemic failure tonight, if you could wait until tomorrow to go over this stuff with your guides, that'd really helpful. I'll be out tomorrow for part of the day with appointments and errands.

*[1] There are many sources of "Interface anomalies." Interface anomalies can range from merely a nuisance to all-out abusive.

*[2] "Prolonged" and "profound:" these two adjectives can be hallmarks of system-wide failures, I've observed.

The above writing contains original intellectual content © Copyright 2019, Seraphime Angelis.

In case you actually WERE really talking to me just now (if not, disregard this post)

Jack, unfortunately, I cannot have you start to call out to me randomly. On that point, I really have needed you to continue confering with Spirit before you randomly call out to me because, again, the Interface, these psychic forums, are very harsh on me and I'm very sensitive to things directed to me through them. Especially suddenly, without warning or clearance. Earlier today was VERY harsh on me when I was interacting with you at the beginning of the day. Please don't take any additional liberties with me for the next while in terms of doing anything unexpected or outside of normal through the Interface. My system can't take it. I don't know if you were calling out to me just now (circa 9:30pm) and just went ahead and started giving me rapid fire content, but I was in the middle of something and what I heard just now seemed to come from you. It startled me and upsettingly harmed me. Please stop, if you were actually doing it. And don't do it again (randomly just start talking without checking to see if I am available first).

Worked @ The Hive Gallery Last Night

♡ Sugar Cookie ♡...so, I was at The Hive last night. Had fun, saw friends. Made some coin. Took some photos for you while dolled up. Thought of you so much I invited your Underground you to join me for a bit. I hope that's OK. You're welcome to tap into the psychic adventures we shared. ♡♡♡

Photos are on Soulkin Instagram! 

The 2020 Election

My fears and angst are very real world. One of the biggest reasons I am so tense and filled with VERY high anxiety all the time - aside from my regular world health and poverty problems and obnoxious, harrassing neighbors - is because if Trump takes a second term in 2020, he and the Republican Party have sworn to gut Medicaid and federal housing assistance programs (like the one I'm on). Medicaid is my health insurance. Trump and the Republicans tried to COMPLETELY gut Medicaid a thousand times over these past three years. They've tried in every single conceivable way, ruthlessly and deceptively. They were BARELY stopped each time. If he makes a second term, him and the Republicans WILL likely end Medicaid, they are so determined.

My heart condition, the serious one, the one called Complete Heart Block, means that my heart is 100% dependent on my pacemaker to pump. Otherwise, without the pacemaker, my heart does NOT pump AT ALL. My heart is so dependent on my pacemaker to pump, that I meet the legal definition of being on life support, according to certain documentation I've read. Every five or six years or so, I need to get my pacemaker's battery changed. That requires an operation. If I don't get the battery to my pacemaker changed every 5 or 6 years or so, the pacemaker - like any battery operated device - powers down and stops working. Once it does that, I will die within 72 hours.

If they take Medicaid away from me, I will not be able to get my battery changed every handful of years. If that happens, I lose my life. Literally. I do not otherwise have money for private insurance. Not even close. I didn't even have enough money for Obamacare. I am so poor, living only off of what they give me for my Disability stipend, that the free version of Medicaid is the only thing I've ever been able to afford. That free version of Medicaid, however, is what is LITERALLY keeping me alive...for the next year only though. Because if Trump wins and/or the Congress ratio changes....

Also, they will defund the federal housing programs - they've vowed it - which means, I will - again, literally - be on the streets...waiting for my pacemaker battery to wear out so that I will die shortly thereafter. I AM NOT EXAGGERATING. THIS IS REAL. THIS IS THE FULL POLITICAL ELEMENT TO MY HEALTH CONDITIONS. 

I created the Underground and these psychic forums, like the Psychic Rosslyn Community (again, NOT having created the Interface mechanism that's giving us all these problems though) because my life - and that of millions of people like me out there in the world - is staring down the barrel of a fucking gun and the clock is ticking. I created the Underground and these psychic forums, like the Rosslyn, because I needed to created a support system. A model I hope to apply to others in need like me out there in the world - if this model works and I'm still alive and housed in a couple of years. I've needed to create a support system because I otherwise have none, no safety net, no one to turn to - no family, no friends, not really. I hoped to be guided to my Soul Group members who are alive (I know many already who are on the Otherside) because I hoped to find people who really cared for me for once and maybe we could, together, build a coalition of support and love and respect against the serious threats some of us have bearing down on ourselves. It's why there's a fire under my feet, both with the Underground and the Awake, Alive and Conscious folks - my life is on the line - IN ADDITION to the intense 11 year timeline of the climate crisis (I've got even less than that - I have a year left!!)

I want you to know this is also one of the BIGGEST regular world reasons why I can't calm down. Why I am so upset, angry, terrified, miserable, depressed ALL THE TIME. Why I am so drained of hope and energy. SINCE 2016, MY OWN GOVERNMENT IS ACTIVELY TRYING TO KILL ME!! (Though not personally, of course - I'm just one of the faceless anonymous nobodies out there they hate).

It is why our Awake, Alive and Conscious group and the Underground can not move fast enough for me, as far as I'm concerned. It's because I am LITERALLY facing possible death within one year's time. That, and homelessness. I have needed all of us (the psychic Rosslyn peeps and the Offsite Helpers) to be in each others' lives, creating real loving REAL WORLD support and aid for each other, so that we can create a safety net for me, yes, and any other Rosslyn tenants like me. And then, look to expand it outward further, is what I'd like - if the Interfaces will cooperate.

The Interface responds very poorly to me and facilitates abusing me constantly, in part because I'm carrying with me the real-world terror of losing my life and my home soon. You know how intense human emotions make that thing go haywire. And I've got some of the most intense emotions a human can have with this Sword of Damocles hanging over my head. Again, it's a real possibility that I may lose my health insurance bc of those conservative fuckers, and, thus, my life. It's never far from my mind, this, and the Interface is always responding to me punitively for it: opposite. Opposite. Opposite. I need hope, tangible possibility/solutions, ease of effort between comrades - I NEED HELP AND SOLUTIONS TO BEGIN TO MANIFEST IN THE REAL, REGULAR WORLD TANGIBLLY, PHYSICALLY - and the Interface, in it's broken state, does what it can to throw every conceivable obfuscation, delay, confusion, sending colleages and loved ones in the exact farthest, wrong direction away from me so that there is never any chance we can coalesce together and form a supportive, dedicated, ALLIANCE and AID, founded on loving decency. 

Please note: my health problems, in and of themselves, especially the lesser, daily bothersome ones, really do wear me out in their own right, as do these crappy, out of control neighbors. Plus, the Interface really is broken and has been acting abusively LONG BEFORE Trump took office in 2016 and LONG BEFORE my cardiac arrest/Complete Heart Block diagnosis in 2014. Those three things (1) poor health 2) out of control neighbors - both related to and caused by my poverty 3) plus, the Interface being inherently abusive long before Trump and to far more people than just me --- are, in and of themselvea, enough to wear me out half the time both physically and mentally! Those three things + the murderous threat of the Republicans are almost the ENTIRE REGULAR WORLD PORTRAIT of why and how you see me so fatigued and scared and crying and feeling unwell and shaking with so much grief and sorrow and hurt feelings in my heart. These four things (total) are at the crux of why I have so many things to say about "how bad the world is today," (well, that and the climate crises and the rise of global fascism....). I feel this country has done me a mortal wound by leaving me to lie in filth and poverty and then, electing a President and Congress who outright wants to kill me and people like me when I've done nothing wrong! I love Art of all kinds and Metaphysics and lots of Love and Sex. What did I ever do to deserve all of this cruelty and neglect? How could I ever feel OK about getting dealt all of this? Please tell me, Jack and Ed, that you can see how these pains and suffering and terrors are VERY REGULAR WORLD! Wouldn't this be enough for anyone to feel devasted most of their days, laid out flat, no more energy or will or hope - hard to even get out of bed half the time???

Relatedly, I do experience unhappy stuff bc I'm an Elder, too, it's true, but it's not what you think it is. I'll go into it later once you are connecting with all of this regular world reality of my life first. In a nutshell though, I can yell you the Senior Elder stuff is basically that bc I'm an Elder, I'll tend to be a person who can see through to the truth of a thing and, on occasion, call a spade a spade. Some people don't like it sometimes and can really have a chip on their shoulder with me. You really are basically understanding all we were ever trying to say. But more on that another time. This other stuff is more pressing and germaine to why you see me struggling so.

Please, Jack, Ed, Paul, Mr. Reeves and Diego (if he's still out there) and all the Psychic Rosslyn Community people - PLEASE GET ME IN YOUR LIFE SOONER RATHER THAN LATER.

I may write more on this later, makes typo corrections, etc.

I'll be "offline" tonight and tomorrow

Jack and Eddie, I have some things to take care of tonight (12/7/19) and tomorrow day/night (12/8/19), so, unfortunately, I'll be offline for a bit. 

I'll let you know if I get done with my stuff at some point late tomorrow night, but it may very well be late.

Connect soon. xoxo

Sexy burlesque dancing @ Adelita's

Thought I'd share with you this super cute little burlesque dancer I saw tonight while stopping by one of my favorite local bars in the neighborhood, called, Adelita's (it's like a block from the Rosslyn).

I didn't realize Adelita's now features burlesque dancers on Wednesday nights. No cover to get in and reasonable drink and food prices, so, I'll be back. :D

Anyway, the two clips are on my YouTube channel. Just go the Homepage, then go to the "Videos" section, and they should be the two most recently uploaded videos after the Thanksgiving clips.

One of the things that drove me to snap some video clips of this (in addition to my bisexual interest, lol) were the dancer's song choices. The first song was so badass, I wished I would have caught more of it to share with you two (would have loved to hear what you both thought). Unf I only caught the last 20 - 30 seconds of it. Oh well. The second song was cool, too, but not as cool as the first one, IMO. Of course, the second one, I was able to catch almost the whole song.

Acid Reflux Episode

I'm having a bit of an Acid Reflux-related episode right now after having just eaten (this happens A LOT sometimes) so, if I seem uncomfortable or down spirited right now, it's because I'm dealing with that physical discomfort. Hopefully, it'll pass before too long as it often can. :) 

These sort of physical discomfort episodes occur A LOT sometimes related to the various milieu of the lesser (not life-threatening) health conditions I have that I listed for you and Eddie on this blog awhile back. They affect my quality of every day life and can often be behind a lot of sad or sour mood I may have (along with having VERY rowdy neighbors with only paper thin walls to block out their cacophony). :/

Additionally, I just got home a little bit ago, after having run lots of errands and stuff, if you wondered why you hadn't heard directly from me before now. 

Holiday media

Here are the two videos I took on Thanksgiving Day at the Santa Monica Pier. Maybe you took some notes on psychic impressions of the locale from the day. If so, here is 1) me first showing up at the pier 2) sitting down to eat some fries. [You'll need to manually cut and paste these URLs].

1) Thanksgiving Day @ the Santa Monica Pier

https://youtu.be/gN9Ye7esNGs

2) Thanksgiving Day @ the burger joint on the Santa Monica Pier

https://youtu.be/OZDSawsGC3Q

Also, I upload a Christmas Tree gallery on the Soulkin Instagram. It's a little photo series on cute Xmas trees from my DTLA neighborhood. :)

There's a note below this one asking you two (and Paul) if you want to do anything around Xmas or on Xmas at all. Please don't feel obliged though. Truly. :) ♡

P.S. I will NOT forget the incredible Dia de los Muertos videos from Hollywood Forever Cemetery. They're beautiful!! And you guys seemed psychically tapped in, so you should see them and I must get them uploaded on YouTube for you soon....

Xmas plans and such

So, what are your (Jack and Eddie) plans for anything on or around Xmas? Aka Xmas day itself and/or any days right before or after?

Of course, on the holiday itself, I worry that my neighbors who are behaviorally awful may be celebrating with their friends and family, thus, ESPECIALLY loud, obnoxious and inconsiderate (I know, still sounds pretty much like every other normal day with them. Sigh.) So, I may go to the beach again (there were a lot of -- but not too many -- people there on Thanksgiving! Made it kinda fun).

And then, I also want to make sure I give you each time with your kids and family/friends. I'm guessing, at the very least, you two would have plans with them in Xmas day proper. I seem to keep hearing from you, Eddie, that you and your family are either "not holiday people in the normal way" and don't really celebrate these days in the fall and winter OR that the kids "go to relatives during this time and are not as focused on hanging out with Dad, whom they see regularly." I'm not sure if this is at all true or not, so I've just tried to air on the side of caution to be respectful to you and your family, Ed, and offer you to have time with your kids and family, especially on Xmas day, itself. Jack, I'm not quite sure what I'm hearing regarding you and your kids/family - it keeps coming through muddled. And yet, for some reason, I got the distinct feeling you were going to be available on Thanksgiving Day, which is why I took a chance and offered for you to psychically come with me to the beach that day. I'm so sorry it didn't go as I hoped. I really wanted to spend it with you and/or with you and Eddie, if he was free, on the beach. :)

I worry you guys found our Thanksgiving week so motley and draining. I, myself, had a GREAT time on the days the five of us synched together and enjoyed our great vegetarian/vegan spread at the "Xmas tree patch." I wish Thanksgiving Day itself had gone better though. I hoped to spend more time at the beach with you both. It was nice and chilly there and so cool to walk along on the sand in the raining storm, communing with the seagulls at night.

If you do wanna try to have a Xmas moment or two,  you're welcome to share the Xmas question with Paul via some five-senses form of communication, if you think he would be open to arranging some Xmas/holiday time together. I can also try to see if I can connect with Shelby about it, too.

On Christmas Eve, I always go to Midnight Mass at the 

Cathedral of Our Lady of the Angels. The Archbishop Gomez says the mass in English and Spanish. It's held at the gorgeous cathedral for the archdiocese of Los Angeles (a few blocks from the Rosslyn), which (you might be interested to know, Jack, is the biggest archdiocese in the whole country, at 5 million participants!)

I think we tapped Eddie in last year and I should be able to take some amount of photographs and video before the mass begins, if you're interested and able to psychically tap into it with me in real time. And, even if you're not, I may upload photos/videos anyway. :)

http://www.olacathedral.org/

Note: Remember, you'll have to cut and paste the link manually into your browser. :(

The truth regarding me interacting with and being around ne'erdowells

Ne'erdowells are far easier for me to handle, navigate, deal with, communicate with etc. in the REGULAR WORLD than in the psychic realms/Interface/Underground.

We've been trying to get this through to you and Eddie for a long time but that damned Interface keeps giving you opposite content bc it's broken.

More on this subject of how much easier it is for me to handle ne'erdowells in person (rather than in any of these psychic realms) later.

The Cow Palace

The Dickens Fair is set at a place called the Cow Palace in the regular world.

Outfits for the Psychic Great Dickens Xmas Fair

Wanna imagine we're each wearing this outfit at the psychic verson of the Great Dickens Xmas Fair we're abt to attend?

Jackie Boy

I am revisiting the video project I was working on prior to Halloween, and am kinda feeling inspired by you and the holiday spirit. I was wondering if I could share with you some Victorian costume ideas on the Soulkin Instagram. Some may be of women's garb, others, men (how I'd like to envision you as my little doll ;) ...maybe even us as dolls together....

Code Name

You're free to give my Rosslyn code name, "Neighbor 22" to Paul in concrete form. You can also give it to Keanu, if you have his contact info, Eddie. It will allow Offsite Helpers (along with Rosslyn tenants) to offer me safer interaction in the Rosslyn psychic forums. Meaning, I'll feel more secure with my actual name not wafting around the psychic airwaves when we're having our Rosslyn meetings complaining about the ne'erdowells or planning out how we will handle them. Thanks!

Murphy Brown

The next show, Coach, is a male biased sports sitcom - not really my thing, but at 11pm, the hilariously  politically feminist - and award-winning - show, Murphy Brown, will air on Antenna TV, if you'd like to sync back up then.

Also, I keep having a hard time with COZI TV'S schedule of shows matching up with what's playing on the television at the same time. :(

Any way, until 11pm, we can cuddle, if you'd like and are available.... ♡♡♡

IMDB.com too

For that matter, IMBD.com now has a cache of free movies available also, if we ever want to try watching those together. We would manually sync up using the Starting Protocol there, too. Pluto TV and IMBD.com free movies have commercials in them.

However, after my testing the Live TV of Pluto, now my only concern is that with both websites the commercials during the films might put us OUT of sync with each other as the movie goes on I.e. I get 2 minutes of commercials and you get 2 minuets and 3 seconds of commercialis. Sigh.

I guess all we could do is experiment at some point and see what happens.

Oh, and what's weirder, is that if you let our respective Pluto Live TV channels play long enough, eventually they WILL sync up. So, in an experiment, I played RuPaul's Drag Race on two different devices in my home here and while at first the show was not in sync, after awhile it DID sync. Weird. Oh well.

Anyway, if you want s'more free movies online ever, also check out IMDB.com, they now have a ton of free streaming movies available.

I wish I could somehow get these sites to some of the poorer Rosslyn residents in our psychic group, bc if they have the internet, they'd prolly really appreciate having access to this free media. :/

Santino on RuPaul's Drag Race

My friend is a judge on this show. He's the judge Santino Rice (natal man, dark hair, hat). He owns a raw, vegan restaurant a couple blocks down the street from the Rosslyn. He's an excellenet vegan raw food chef. :)

Pluto TV

OK, this is a new online streaming service. It's completely free for everyone and, to-date, there is no tiered structure, no paid level of service - it's all free for every viewer.

They have movies, televisions shows, news, documentaries, a little bit of everything. They have a lot of commercials, especially during the television shows.

Under the rubric "Live TV" we can pick a show and perhaps watch it together. BUT I'm not sure that our respective streams will be completely synced during the commercials, which may throw our viewing out of alignment with each other.

If the "Live TV" cannot reliably sync up between us, we can always occasionally watch a movie together through the "On Demand" selection of movies, synching manually by using the Starting Protocol. :)

If you're curious tonight, I have the channel called RuPaul Drag Race on right now. It's under the "Live TV" section.

HERE'S THE LINK TO THE WEBSITE 》》》
https://pluto.tv