Jack, for clarity, and if possible, any little or big amount of time you want to and can shave off your tour and/or album/band/publicity commitments IS something I want. THERE IS NOTHING I WANT MORE, IN FACT. My only concern is getting my hopes up again and then getting them horribly dashed again. See the third paragraph below for details.
Now, in terms of how I would know if you achieved schedule ameliorations or cutting back - I may only have access to view your tour schedule on Bandsintown or the Raconteurs' website. Ancillary commitments, like interviews or appearances, I wouldn't likely have any way of knowing in concrete terms whether you had something scheduled or canceled it, but your tour dates I do have a calendar of and could, therefore, see if you ended up canceling any dates and made yourself more personally available to me and us.
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On a separate but related note, what I keep hearing you say psychically is that you had never intended to try to make any big changes to your tour/album schedule and had tried to tell me, but I didn't hear it correctly. This is always devastating to me to hear because I had thought you had been saying this summer you were ready to crack under the weight of this long-term tour commitment and really wanted out and were going to try to see if you could make a large-scale commitment change, a lessening of dates, in fact. I thought you requested making the other members of the band Awake and Alive and Conscious so that they might be on board and you got my hopes up and everything. It was devastating to see you not cancel anything, but instead you guys have just kept adding date after date after date to that tour. It's been so cruel to me and heartbreaking to watch you go further away, not closer. You talked so romantically and seemingly like you wanted us to be together and you seemed like you wanted to see if you could make changes to do so, but then you never followed through, you, in fact, went in the opposite direction and now all I often telepathically hear is you telling me you had never said you'd try to take tour dates off and that I basically should've been more realistic and realized that it would have been unlikely for you to do that. I keep hearing you tell me you tried to warn me not to get my hopes up. It's why I've been beside myself with disappointment, confusion, grief, sorrow and a great sense of betrayal over you.
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