Please do not contact me for a few days, at least. Unfortunately, you have been coming through very intensely in tone and demeanor (including word choices) and doing A LOT of rapid-fire talking for long periods of time and you won't stop, even though myself and the guides/helpers are asking you to. It is hurting me. This has been occurring for the last couple/few weeks, at least. It is hurting me and starting to scare me. I need to heal from it and collect my thoughts from the recent discoveries and conversations we've had. I appreciate you understanding. ♡♡♡
I am still very sensitive to trying to do a lot of channeling and, if anything, it has gotten a lot worse for me. Even though the collective ppl of the Underground are trying to make improvements to the Interface, I, myself, am very traumatized and am still in a deep state of trying to recover and heal as a result of Jack's album release and tour and your solo tour this summer.
These experiences of yours and Jack's brought great anomalous harm to the Interface for me, along with the 7.1 earthquake. I can NOT be receiving a lot of extended rapid-fire channeling or much channeling at all. I am very physically and psychologically wounded by channeling now after this summer and am terrified of it from either you or Jack or any of the Awake, Alive and Conscious people. I am simply trying to heal and recover now.
Also, yes, I just found out for the first time last night in the middle of the night, that you and your band have an upcoming album to be released soon and an upcoming big world-wide tour, and I will be put through this all over again. I am deeply traumatized and barely able to recover from Jack's album release and tour and how it impacted the Interface for me. I am deeply traumatized and cannot believe I'm about to put through this all over again and so soon. I had said to you and Jack several times, "After this summer, I cannot ever go through this again." And yet here I am, barely a month and half after your solo tour and still in the middle of Jack's band world tour. To learn this with you and your band, this will break me. I am breaking.
I also just found out in the last two or three weeks that you and JV know the powerful O couple (and no doubt, a host of other similar people in the public and private sector). This has been a huge shock for me and has left me feeling very betrayed because I had no idea at all. Yet, you did know and you knew that I said I can not know you if you know people like that. You've been operating with a conflict of interest this whole time and I had no idea. I have been in a state of shock and the shocks keep coming and coming and don't let up and for some reason, you are also really pushily doing a lot of intense comportment talking when I am asking and asking you to stop or to please minimize the amount or at least use the "delayed, making available" technique where you use the hand-gesture that looks like one is pulling apart doughy bread.
From just the abusive shock and ordeal of Jack's album release and world tour alone, I am traumatized and dazed and in a state of dazed and scared recovery.
And now, here recently, I have been given even more shocks and harms with big, far reaching implications. I am so broken right now, I can't even see straight. I don't even feel coherent half the time.
I AM saying, "I am trying to hold on, Eddie! I am trying to hold on! I want to be with you!" but, Eddie, you are making it so hard. These events are making it so hard. I am beaten down to a pulp and am barely making it through this and then, I learn this thing last night about you and your band and I don't know how to survive it or manage it. Please be gentle and not blatant when talking abt it to me. Tragically, it has not been made into a casual or celebratory thing for me, your guys' albums or tours, for what it will likely cost me. In fact, I cannot face this or manage it while in this psychic space, so I just basically found out last night for the first time I'm going to completely lose you for half a year or more. And soon. And then a year or so after that, I'll go through this all over again.
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